Hey yall,
How is everyone doing? I hope that all is going well! Since I'm at work today, yes, at work, and I don't have any clients this morning, I thought I'd do a little blogging, amongst other things.
You know how I told yall that I was having the saddest day on Friday? Well, I kinda was still going through on Saturday. You see, God is so funny. He doesn't allow us to pick our days of deliverance. He doesn't let me say, "On Monday, January 7, 2008, I would like to be delivered from blah blah blah." No. In fact, God is so sovereign that He gets to pick the days and times to deliver us. We just have to realize that He's doing it because He loves us; surrender to His hand; and say yes to him. Well anyway, Saturday was my day of deliverance! Woo hoo!
Chris had told some folks that we bake cookies and that we would bake and sell them some. Well, I wasn't down with this idea. I wanted to do something else. So, I commenced to acting a plum out-and-out fool. I can hear some of yall saying, "You Sharonda? Act a fool?" Yes. Though it may be hard to believe. Even I act a fool from time to time. LOL.
Anyway, after hollering and screaming and trippin' to the max, I humbled myself. Said yes to my deliverance from resistance and inflexibility, and went on to bake cookies with Chris. Boy! I had the best time! That just took away all sadness.
We sang, laughed, danced around, etc., etc. We made oatmeal dough, peanut butter cookies, and chocolate chip cookies. Not only did we bake them, my family and other people ate and enjoyed them and we gave some away for Christmas!
Though the person didn't end up buying the cookies for various reasons, I didn't even care. I got my deliverance, we had loads of fun, and our house smelled like a huge cookie!
I got even greater deliverance too. You see, I used to bake a bunch in Detroit. I sold homemade cookies, breads, pizzas, pies, rolls and the like. But when I got to AZ, I just shut down completely. My family has been waiting for me to come out of my cave. I guess I'm emerging slowly!!!!! And the world says, "Hallelujah!!!"
Thursday, December 27, 2007
Saturday, December 22, 2007
Friday Nite Live!
As always, there's a lot to say. But since I've gone through a day of deliverance--thanks to God and my husband, Chris--I'll keep this post kinda short.
I was so blessed for the service last night! I mean I received a breakthrough as I stood up on the altar worshipping God.
You see, I've had the craziest couple of months. We, unexpectedly, had to get a car to get to all of our appointments. Then last week, we had to spend $1500 between the two of us getting teeth pulled. $925 was spent pulling three of Chris' teeth. He had been sick for a couple of weeks. His face was swollen and wasn't going down. He went to the doctor and then to emergency, only for them to tell him that he had an ear infection. On Monday 12/17, he went to the dentist and they told him that his tooth was the cause of this infection. They said that if he had waited just another two days, he would have landed in the hospital. Then two days later, we had to spend $522 ($300 I had to borrow) to get my tooth pulled. I thought the thing had a cavity; that's why I had a three-week toothache. But no. They said it was cracked severely and would be best coming out. $1500? How crazy is that in one week? Man! I felt like we should've put our name on the Adopt a Family list, cuz we don't have anything.
Anyway, I sat at work yesterday, not feeling quite festive. There was a Christmas party being held in our other building across the street. I asked if I could stay behind. I really was bemoaning my state. I tried to call and text people that are close to me. I thought, at least I could keep giving holiday wishes or just support and no one would ever know how I felt. In fact, I thought that even I could ignore my own feelings. But it didn't work like that. After all the texting and calling and leaving messages, I was faced with my feelings. Oppression. Depression. Even sadness.
I gave in to them for a few minutes. Even shedding some tears as I sat alone eating my lunch. But it was like I heard the Holy Ghost say, "Why are you crying? As long as you have Jesus in your life, you should be one of the happiest people on earth." My tears dried up, and I began to think about this. Yes, that's true. This holiday is a time for giving, and the greatest gift we could ever receive is the gift of joy and everlasting life, because Jesus lives in us and we are born again! (john 10:10)
That gave me strength, but I still had a bit of oppression last night when I arrived at church. In fact, I won't lie. I even thought twice about coming. But, I overcame my flesh and went anyway.
And while I was singing, the Spirit of revelation hit me strong. The Lord began to talk to me about the spirit of distraction.
The spirit of distraction is a part of the antichrist spirit. It is the antichrist that wants our focus and attention to be taken off of Christ during CHRIST mas. Thus, anti- Christ. If Satan can get us all focused on gift giving, holiday festivities, or to the other end of the spectrum--what I don't have, oppression, depression suicide, and whatever is all on that end--he has done his job. Let me reiterate this in another light. If Satan can get the saints to stop being focused on their prayer, intercession, worship, praise, reading the Word, to get us all wrapped up in cooking, eating, holiday festivities, shopping, etc., he has been successful at his job. If this same antichrist spirit can get folks all depressed, oppressed, sad, hopeless and the like, once again, he has been successful at doing his job.
So instead of getting on the defensive, or getting all upset as you read this post, I believe we should do some introspection and see where we fall in this spectrum. Unfortunately, I know that many saints fall on one side or the other. We lack balance. This means it's time to repent and get refocused.
This is what I did. I began to repent right there while I was singing. I am a warrior. I do violence on the devil. I'm not supposed to allow him to do violence on me! Wait a minute! This is not in order!
Instead of allowing Satan to be successful in my life. I began to warfare in my worship. And yall thought I was singing for your breakthrough! LOL. That's why I love praise and worship. It's a two-edged sword. While you're blessing someone else by your obedience, God is breaking through in my life because of my obedience. I began to do violence against the antichrist spirit that had come to attack me. Make me think of all the stuff I didn't have. Maybe things haven't yet changed in my physical world, but they sure did a big change in my spirit! As much as I love this time of year, my focus must be on Jesus--still doing what I know to be right; reading my Word, spending time with God; praying; and if necessary, even fasting. That's right, I said fasting.
Well, I've preached enough. I know my post will ignite some nervousness, and that's good. It's supposed to. At some point, we must be so focused that we don't get distracted by the activities of the world. We are of another world. Our citizenship is in heaven. We must be kingdom-minded. We must carry on the affairs of the Kingdom at all times. Now, let's not get all deep here. There's nothing wrong with gift-giving and having a good time. God has given us all things richly to enjoy! (1 Tim 6:17) I'm just saying, that we must be a balanced people.
I rebuke laxadazical spirits from my life and the lives of others who understand this word! I curse the spirit of the antichrist and the spirits of distraction from my life! Satan, you will no longer control my focus! I have risen with Christ! Therefore, I set my affections on things above, where Christ sits! I will not think on or be wrapped up in
things that are of this world. (Col 3:1-2
I was so blessed for the service last night! I mean I received a breakthrough as I stood up on the altar worshipping God.
You see, I've had the craziest couple of months. We, unexpectedly, had to get a car to get to all of our appointments. Then last week, we had to spend $1500 between the two of us getting teeth pulled. $925 was spent pulling three of Chris' teeth. He had been sick for a couple of weeks. His face was swollen and wasn't going down. He went to the doctor and then to emergency, only for them to tell him that he had an ear infection. On Monday 12/17, he went to the dentist and they told him that his tooth was the cause of this infection. They said that if he had waited just another two days, he would have landed in the hospital. Then two days later, we had to spend $522 ($300 I had to borrow) to get my tooth pulled. I thought the thing had a cavity; that's why I had a three-week toothache. But no. They said it was cracked severely and would be best coming out. $1500? How crazy is that in one week? Man! I felt like we should've put our name on the Adopt a Family list, cuz we don't have anything.
Anyway, I sat at work yesterday, not feeling quite festive. There was a Christmas party being held in our other building across the street. I asked if I could stay behind. I really was bemoaning my state. I tried to call and text people that are close to me. I thought, at least I could keep giving holiday wishes or just support and no one would ever know how I felt. In fact, I thought that even I could ignore my own feelings. But it didn't work like that. After all the texting and calling and leaving messages, I was faced with my feelings. Oppression. Depression. Even sadness.
I gave in to them for a few minutes. Even shedding some tears as I sat alone eating my lunch. But it was like I heard the Holy Ghost say, "Why are you crying? As long as you have Jesus in your life, you should be one of the happiest people on earth." My tears dried up, and I began to think about this. Yes, that's true. This holiday is a time for giving, and the greatest gift we could ever receive is the gift of joy and everlasting life, because Jesus lives in us and we are born again! (john 10:10)
That gave me strength, but I still had a bit of oppression last night when I arrived at church. In fact, I won't lie. I even thought twice about coming. But, I overcame my flesh and went anyway.
And while I was singing, the Spirit of revelation hit me strong. The Lord began to talk to me about the spirit of distraction.
The spirit of distraction is a part of the antichrist spirit. It is the antichrist that wants our focus and attention to be taken off of Christ during CHRIST mas. Thus, anti- Christ. If Satan can get us all focused on gift giving, holiday festivities, or to the other end of the spectrum--what I don't have, oppression, depression suicide, and whatever is all on that end--he has done his job. Let me reiterate this in another light. If Satan can get the saints to stop being focused on their prayer, intercession, worship, praise, reading the Word, to get us all wrapped up in cooking, eating, holiday festivities, shopping, etc., he has been successful at his job. If this same antichrist spirit can get folks all depressed, oppressed, sad, hopeless and the like, once again, he has been successful at doing his job.
So instead of getting on the defensive, or getting all upset as you read this post, I believe we should do some introspection and see where we fall in this spectrum. Unfortunately, I know that many saints fall on one side or the other. We lack balance. This means it's time to repent and get refocused.
This is what I did. I began to repent right there while I was singing. I am a warrior. I do violence on the devil. I'm not supposed to allow him to do violence on me! Wait a minute! This is not in order!
Instead of allowing Satan to be successful in my life. I began to warfare in my worship. And yall thought I was singing for your breakthrough! LOL. That's why I love praise and worship. It's a two-edged sword. While you're blessing someone else by your obedience, God is breaking through in my life because of my obedience. I began to do violence against the antichrist spirit that had come to attack me. Make me think of all the stuff I didn't have. Maybe things haven't yet changed in my physical world, but they sure did a big change in my spirit! As much as I love this time of year, my focus must be on Jesus--still doing what I know to be right; reading my Word, spending time with God; praying; and if necessary, even fasting. That's right, I said fasting.
Well, I've preached enough. I know my post will ignite some nervousness, and that's good. It's supposed to. At some point, we must be so focused that we don't get distracted by the activities of the world. We are of another world. Our citizenship is in heaven. We must be kingdom-minded. We must carry on the affairs of the Kingdom at all times. Now, let's not get all deep here. There's nothing wrong with gift-giving and having a good time. God has given us all things richly to enjoy! (1 Tim 6:17) I'm just saying, that we must be a balanced people.
I rebuke laxadazical spirits from my life and the lives of others who understand this word! I curse the spirit of the antichrist and the spirits of distraction from my life! Satan, you will no longer control my focus! I have risen with Christ! Therefore, I set my affections on things above, where Christ sits! I will not think on or be wrapped up in
things that are of this world. (Col 3:1-2
Sunday, December 2, 2007
A Prayer Request
Can you believe it? I'm here for round two! Yes, I'm sleepy. It's just that I'm always so busy, I never get time to write. And writing is actually relaxing to me--the kind where I'm not stressed to do so. So writing at work isn't fun, cuz I've got to do it. But writing for fun is fun!!!!
I've got a prayer request and need help. So I thought that here would be the best place to post it. If you can help either by prayer or by action, thank you very much.
My mother and I work in the vicinity of the church. In fact, I'm only ten minutes away. She works on Jefferson. I work on W. Lincoln Street. We commute to and from work together, because it's easy and fun!!! Anyway, things are about to change within a week.
My mother is about to start working from home. I'm so excited for her. However, this puts my transportation to and from work in jeopardy. I have to be at work by 7:30 or so each morning. I get off at 4:30 each evening. Those times are a little bit flexible. So, I need help in getting to and from work. I am willing to pay for gas for that transportation--as the laborer is worthy of his hire; and frankly, I appreciate any and all help.
If this is something you would be willing to do on any weekday--Monday thru Friday--please either email me or call me.
I am ultimately trusting God for a breakthrough in this area. I need this breakthrough to happen this week. Thanks again for your help, either by prayers or by action.
God bless,
Sharonda
(623) 455-6492
I've got a prayer request and need help. So I thought that here would be the best place to post it. If you can help either by prayer or by action, thank you very much.
My mother and I work in the vicinity of the church. In fact, I'm only ten minutes away. She works on Jefferson. I work on W. Lincoln Street. We commute to and from work together, because it's easy and fun!!! Anyway, things are about to change within a week.
My mother is about to start working from home. I'm so excited for her. However, this puts my transportation to and from work in jeopardy. I have to be at work by 7:30 or so each morning. I get off at 4:30 each evening. Those times are a little bit flexible. So, I need help in getting to and from work. I am willing to pay for gas for that transportation--as the laborer is worthy of his hire; and frankly, I appreciate any and all help.
If this is something you would be willing to do on any weekday--Monday thru Friday--please either email me or call me.
I am ultimately trusting God for a breakthrough in this area. I need this breakthrough to happen this week. Thanks again for your help, either by prayers or by action.
God bless,
Sharonda
(623) 455-6492
Sunday, September 2, 2007
Check This Out
Just wanted to find out if this will work. I would be so excited
if I did.
Sharonda Greenlaw and Rusty
Phoenix, AZ
if I did.
Sharonda Greenlaw and Rusty
Phoenix, AZ
Friday, August 3, 2007
Pensive Mood
Today, I'm meditative. I see my own flaws of being judgmental and
critical. The Lord has convicted me that I want everyone to live up to
my standards. And if they don't, I want to cut them off. Not cool.
critical. The Lord has convicted me that I want everyone to live up to
my standards. And if they don't, I want to cut them off. Not cool.
Judgmental--tending to judge or criticize the conduct of other people.
Critical; condemnatory; negative; disapproving; disparaging;
hypercritical.
Hypercritical--excessively critical; captious. Marked by a tendency to
find and call attention to errors and flaws.
I have to allow God to be God and other people--my husband, my
coworkers,... anybody--be themselves. They don't feel, think and
believe like me. And they don't necessarily have to. I'm not talking
about that tolerance stuff where folks are afraid to call a spade a
spade or a sin a sin. I'm talking about knowing what God says and
committing that thing to prayer, instead of me always confronting it.
Is that wrong? Is that a crime? No. I may be right, but I'm not God.
Doesn't God have the power to change people? Didn't He change me?
Isn't He the one who is still changing me; convicting me? Yes. Well
then. Why do I stand in God's way? Just some of my thoughts...
Thursday's Devotion
I didn't wake up early today. However, when I did get up at 5:15, I
came right to the presence of God.
came right to the presence of God.
Hypocrite--an actor; to play a part; to pretend; a person who
professes beliefs that he does not hold; a dissembler; a phony; a
pretender; a beguiler; a cheater; a deceiver; a trickster. Someone who
leads you to believe something that is not true. A person who is
inwardly evil, but outwardly professes to be virtuous.
Jeremiah 17:9
The place of hypocrisy is an easy place for any Christian or
nonChristian to get into. We must daily come to God for examination of
our hearts.
James 1:21-26
If I say, "I'm cool. I'm alright" but I'm really messed up on the
inside; or if I say, "I know I'm a mess" and don't do anything to
change it, this makes me a hypocrite.
Thursday, August 2, 2007
Wednesday
I woke up at the same time—3:52 This morning. I had the day off, so I was excited that I could really take my time with the Lord! Chris and I had planned yesterday to start today praying together at 4:30 this morning.
We read Psalm 84 and Proverbs 8:34-36
He started reading a few verses from Proverbs 9, about wisdom building her house and preparing a feast for all to come and enjoy.
Of course, that lead us to the New Testament Scripture about the feast where the guests were busy, so the bridegroom invited people from the streets. We read the one in Matt 22:1-14.
This passage from the story took me for a loop.
" 11 “But when the king came in to meet the guests, he noticed a man who wasn’t wearing the proper clothes for a wedding. 12 ‘Friend,’ he asked, ‘how is it
that you are here without wedding clothes?’ But the man had no reply. 13 Then the king said to his aides, ‘Bind his hands and feet and throw him into the
outer darkness, where there will be weeping and gnashing of teeth.’"
I had never seen that part before. I was literally shaking. The Lord began to talk to me about preparation—it's an action word. The unprepared man went to hell.
As I began reading Matthew Henry's Precise Commentary, he put it this way—once again, I was floored.
"The case of hypocrites is represented by the guest that had not on a wedding-garment."
As confession went forth, we started talking about integrity. In order to be clean on both the inside and the outside, we must know that the Lord is looking and watching at all times. The Pastor might not be around; your husband; your wife; your parents; your best friend, etc. But the Father God is looking and nothing done in the dark will stay covered. It will be revealed.
Integrity—Character; who I am when no one is looking; honesty.
We read Psalm 84 and Proverbs 8:34-36
He started reading a few verses from Proverbs 9, about wisdom building her house and preparing a feast for all to come and enjoy.
Of course, that lead us to the New Testament Scripture about the feast where the guests were busy, so the bridegroom invited people from the streets. We read the one in Matt 22:1-14.
This passage from the story took me for a loop.
" 11 “But when the king came in to meet the guests, he noticed a man who wasn’t wearing the proper clothes for a wedding. 12 ‘Friend,’ he asked, ‘how is it
that you are here without wedding clothes?’ But the man had no reply. 13 Then the king said to his aides, ‘Bind his hands and feet and throw him into the
outer darkness, where there will be weeping and gnashing of teeth.’"
I had never seen that part before. I was literally shaking. The Lord began to talk to me about preparation—it's an action word. The unprepared man went to hell.
As I began reading Matthew Henry's Precise Commentary, he put it this way—once again, I was floored.
"The case of hypocrites is represented by the guest that had not on a wedding-garment."
As confession went forth, we started talking about integrity. In order to be clean on both the inside and the outside, we must know that the Lord is looking and watching at all times. The Pastor might not be around; your husband; your wife; your parents; your best friend, etc. But the Father God is looking and nothing done in the dark will stay covered. It will be revealed.
Integrity—Character; who I am when no one is looking; honesty.
Tuesday, July 31, 2007
Tuesday's Secret Place
Today, I started with Psalm 63. I like to start with Psalms that will cause my heart to thirst more for God. Thin, I had to follow up on a Word the Lord hit me with while I was in the shower. Trust me, It blew me away!
1 Peter 5:8-10 (NLT): " 8 Stay alert! Watch out for your great enemy, the devil. He prowls around like a roaring lion, looking for someone to devour. 9 Stand firm against him,
and be strong in your faith. Remember that your Christian brothers and sisters[a]
all over the world are going through the same kind of suffering you are.
10 In his kindness God called you to share in his eternal glory by means of Christ Jesus. So after you have suffered a little while, he will restore, support,
and strengthen you, and he will place you on a firm foundation."
Satan is coming. He is on his job. That is a given. Trials are coming. That is a promise.
Neh 4:14 (NLT): " 14 Then as I looked over the situation, I called together the nobles and the rest of the people and said to them, “Don’t be afraid of the enemy! Remember
the Lord, who is great and glorious, and fight for your brothers, your sons, your daughters, your wives, and your homes!”"
Now, I must do my job and fight! I must fight for my husband. I can't give up and run away, which I'm so proaned to do. I must fight for my home.
1 Corinthians 7
Read the entire chapter in the New Living Translation (NLT). For me, this is a constant reminder in up-to-date language of what a Christian wife should be doing.
1 Peter 5:8-10 (NLT): " 8 Stay alert! Watch out for your great enemy, the devil. He prowls around like a roaring lion, looking for someone to devour. 9 Stand firm against him,
and be strong in your faith. Remember that your Christian brothers and sisters[a]
all over the world are going through the same kind of suffering you are.
10 In his kindness God called you to share in his eternal glory by means of Christ Jesus. So after you have suffered a little while, he will restore, support,
and strengthen you, and he will place you on a firm foundation."
Satan is coming. He is on his job. That is a given. Trials are coming. That is a promise.
Neh 4:14 (NLT): " 14 Then as I looked over the situation, I called together the nobles and the rest of the people and said to them, “Don’t be afraid of the enemy! Remember
the Lord, who is great and glorious, and fight for your brothers, your sons, your daughters, your wives, and your homes!”"
Now, I must do my job and fight! I must fight for my husband. I can't give up and run away, which I'm so proaned to do. I must fight for my home.
1 Corinthians 7
Read the entire chapter in the New Living Translation (NLT). For me, this is a constant reminder in up-to-date language of what a Christian wife should be doing.
Tuesday's Secret Place
Today, I started with Psalm 63. I like to start with Psalms that will cause my heart to thirst more for God. Thin, I had to follow up on a Word the Lord hit me with while I was in the shower. Trust me, It blew me away!
1 Peter 5:8-10 (NLT): " 8 Stay alert! Watch out for your great enemy, the devil. He prowls around like a roaring lion, looking for someone to devour. 9 Stand firm against him,
and be strong in your faith. Remember that your Christian brothers and sisters[a]
all over the world are going through the same kind of suffering you are.
10 In his kindness God called you to share in his eternal glory by means of Christ Jesus. So after you have suffered a little while, he will restore, support,
and strengthen you, and he will place you on a firm foundation."
Satan is coming. He is on his job. That is a given. Trials are coming. That is a promise.
Neh 4:14 (NLT): " 14 Then as I looked over the situation, I called together the nobles and the rest of the people and said to them, “Don’t be afraid of the enemy! Remember
the Lord, who is great and glorious, and fight for your brothers, your sons, your daughters, your wives, and your homes!”"
Now, I must do my job and fight! I must fight for my husband. I can't give up and run away, which I'm so proaned to do. I must fight for my home.
1 Corinthians 7
Read the entire chapter in the New Living Translation (NLT). For me, this is a constant reminder in up-to-date language of what a Christian wife should be doing.
1 Peter 5:8-10 (NLT): " 8 Stay alert! Watch out for your great enemy, the devil. He prowls around like a roaring lion, looking for someone to devour. 9 Stand firm against him,
and be strong in your faith. Remember that your Christian brothers and sisters[a]
all over the world are going through the same kind of suffering you are.
10 In his kindness God called you to share in his eternal glory by means of Christ Jesus. So after you have suffered a little while, he will restore, support,
and strengthen you, and he will place you on a firm foundation."
Satan is coming. He is on his job. That is a given. Trials are coming. That is a promise.
Neh 4:14 (NLT): " 14 Then as I looked over the situation, I called together the nobles and the rest of the people and said to them, “Don’t be afraid of the enemy! Remember
the Lord, who is great and glorious, and fight for your brothers, your sons, your daughters, your wives, and your homes!”"
Now, I must do my job and fight! I must fight for my husband. I can't give up and run away, which I'm so proaned to do. I must fight for my home.
1 Corinthians 7
Read the entire chapter in the New Living Translation (NLT). For me, this is a constant reminder in up-to-date language of what a Christian wife should be doing.
Monday, July 30, 2007
Time with God
Ok. I've been hit with some deep stuff lately. I mean, some deep stuff. My first reaction was to quit, leave it be, and nurse my emotional hurts. I have been spiritually tired. Not wanting to fight at all.
I began yesterday to pray that the Lord would help me to get back into His presence each morning. Get back into Bible studies. Get back into the swing of being a warrior! As Pastor Ramon just preached, I was a reservist soldier.
Anyway, the Lord woke me up this morning just a bit before 4:00 AM. And these are the notes of our conversation:
Matt 23:25-28
I can't just be concerned that the outside (what people can see) is clean and holy. I must make sure that the inside (my heart and spirit) is pure and clean.
I must war against the deceptive spirits; the Pharisaic spirit; the unclean spirits. It's a sin to make people think that I'm alright, but really, I'm a mess inside.
James 4:7 (NLT): "So humble yourselves before God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you."
Resist—To strive, to fend off or offset the actions, effects, or force of; to remain firm against the actions, effects, or force of; to keep from giving into or enjoying; to oppose.
"Resist" is an action word!
I can't afford to be inactive; to sit down. I have to fight against the devil when he comes against me, my home, my husband, my family.
James 4:8 (NLT): "Come close to God, and God will come close to you. Wash your hands, you sinners; purify your hearts, for your loyalty is divided between God and the world."
I have to make the first effort to get closer to God. As soon as I make that effot to draw night, God will come closer to me. I've got to be in that prayer; I've got to be in that place where the presence of God is. In my home, I've got to press through to get into the presence of God
Psalm 51:6-8 (KJV: "6Behold, thou desirest truth in the inward parts: and in the hidden part thou shalt make me to know wisdom.
7Purge me with hyssop, and I shall be clean: wash me, and I shall be whiter than snow.
8Make me to hear joy and gladness; that the bones which thou hast broken may rejoice."
I pray for a spirit of truth to be in my marriage—truth on the inside.
I must take inventory and get it right. I don't know how much longer I'll have.
I began yesterday to pray that the Lord would help me to get back into His presence each morning. Get back into Bible studies. Get back into the swing of being a warrior! As Pastor Ramon just preached, I was a reservist soldier.
Anyway, the Lord woke me up this morning just a bit before 4:00 AM. And these are the notes of our conversation:
Matt 23:25-28
I can't just be concerned that the outside (what people can see) is clean and holy. I must make sure that the inside (my heart and spirit) is pure and clean.
I must war against the deceptive spirits; the Pharisaic spirit; the unclean spirits. It's a sin to make people think that I'm alright, but really, I'm a mess inside.
James 4:7 (NLT): "So humble yourselves before God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you."
Resist—To strive, to fend off or offset the actions, effects, or force of; to remain firm against the actions, effects, or force of; to keep from giving into or enjoying; to oppose.
"Resist" is an action word!
I can't afford to be inactive; to sit down. I have to fight against the devil when he comes against me, my home, my husband, my family.
James 4:8 (NLT): "Come close to God, and God will come close to you. Wash your hands, you sinners; purify your hearts, for your loyalty is divided between God and the world."
I have to make the first effort to get closer to God. As soon as I make that effot to draw night, God will come closer to me. I've got to be in that prayer; I've got to be in that place where the presence of God is. In my home, I've got to press through to get into the presence of God
Psalm 51:6-8 (KJV: "6Behold, thou desirest truth in the inward parts: and in the hidden part thou shalt make me to know wisdom.
7Purge me with hyssop, and I shall be clean: wash me, and I shall be whiter than snow.
8Make me to hear joy and gladness; that the bones which thou hast broken may rejoice."
I pray for a spirit of truth to be in my marriage—truth on the inside.
I must take inventory and get it right. I don't know how much longer I'll have.
Saturday, July 28, 2007
Perplexed...
Today, I'm kinda perplexed. I ran into a situation that I just don't understand.
I guess because I try to live truth, speak truth, and I love the truth, I can't get with double-tongued folks—the ones that say one thing and mean another. The ones that say one thing outwardly, but think something else inwardly. The ones, in the Kingdom of God, that you can't trust to be like God. Psalm 51:6; Psalm 5:9
Lord, I know I need to pray more. As Pastor Bob said last night, we have to coming into the time of using the ephod to see things accomplished.
In dealing with people like this, confrontation just isn't the key. They say one thing just to get you out of their face. But they go and do something else totally different. These are the folks in the Kingdom of God, yall.
I think that it's time to pray for truth to remain in the inward parts. I will have to pray for a change of mindset. It's just time to pray.
As people read this blog entry where I am so mega sad and confused, I want you to know that this in no way is a reflection of my God. It's jjust a thing that folks have to allow God to do in their lives.
You see hypocrites in the church? The devil wants you to get all offended about it and leave? Well, instead of looking at it like that, begin to know that God can't change and conform someone who doesn't want to be changed and conformed. And I can allow the Lord to conform certain parts, but not other parts of my life. What the Lord is looking for is a total surrender, not a partial one. Only when this occurs will we see the greater works in our homes and in our personal lives. More of our coworkers will come to the Cross.
Romans 12:2 "And be not conformed to this world: but be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind, that ye may prove what is that good, and acceptable, and perfect, will of God."
I guess because I try to live truth, speak truth, and I love the truth, I can't get with double-tongued folks—the ones that say one thing and mean another. The ones that say one thing outwardly, but think something else inwardly. The ones, in the Kingdom of God, that you can't trust to be like God. Psalm 51:6; Psalm 5:9
Lord, I know I need to pray more. As Pastor Bob said last night, we have to coming into the time of using the ephod to see things accomplished.
In dealing with people like this, confrontation just isn't the key. They say one thing just to get you out of their face. But they go and do something else totally different. These are the folks in the Kingdom of God, yall.
I think that it's time to pray for truth to remain in the inward parts. I will have to pray for a change of mindset. It's just time to pray.
As people read this blog entry where I am so mega sad and confused, I want you to know that this in no way is a reflection of my God. It's jjust a thing that folks have to allow God to do in their lives.
You see hypocrites in the church? The devil wants you to get all offended about it and leave? Well, instead of looking at it like that, begin to know that God can't change and conform someone who doesn't want to be changed and conformed. And I can allow the Lord to conform certain parts, but not other parts of my life. What the Lord is looking for is a total surrender, not a partial one. Only when this occurs will we see the greater works in our homes and in our personal lives. More of our coworkers will come to the Cross.
Romans 12:2 "And be not conformed to this world: but be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind, that ye may prove what is that good, and acceptable, and perfect, will of God."
Wednesday, July 25, 2007
A Kinda Fun Day
Today, I had to go to two clients' home and help with computer issues. It was nice being with Chris. He was a big help. One place, we had to install a brand new computer. Well, he's really good at that color-coordination thing—wonder why I'm not—so he hooked it up with the quickness.
We didn't get home until 12:45 tonight. One of my clients bought us pizza and pop for us to eat. I really found that quite thoughtful. I really appreciate thoughtful people.
I think that thoughtfulness is a quality that, unfortunately, is going to the dogs in this world. First of all, lots of people don't even think, let alone think of how to be kind to you.
Ok, I'm off my soap box now.
Anyway, I had fun spending time with Chris. Because of our busy schedules, that's a rarity. We were out in a storm, but the storm went over fast enough.
I used my GPS to help navigate to both houses. I had so much fun doing this. See? I told yall I'd be using it more.
We didn't get home until 12:45 tonight. One of my clients bought us pizza and pop for us to eat. I really found that quite thoughtful. I really appreciate thoughtful people.
I think that thoughtfulness is a quality that, unfortunately, is going to the dogs in this world. First of all, lots of people don't even think, let alone think of how to be kind to you.
Ok, I'm off my soap box now.
Anyway, I had fun spending time with Chris. Because of our busy schedules, that's a rarity. We were out in a storm, but the storm went over fast enough.
I used my GPS to help navigate to both houses. I had so much fun doing this. See? I told yall I'd be using it more.
Saturday, July 21, 2007
The Tabernacle
The Tabernacle was so awesome. I have never been in a service like that. They had the entire church set up like the tabernacle. Up where we sang, they had the Holy of Holies. With Ashley's help, I was able to see part of the tent. Nikka promised to show me the whole Tabernacle at the end of the night, but I couldn't stay that long.
Anyway, we worshipped and worshipped. I enjoyed that immensely—you know that! One of the guys in our congregation even played the trumpet along with us. That was so majestic.
At the end of all the worship—no, whorship was still goin on—people came to the Holy of Holies for prayer. It was a lot of folks too!
During the time that Nikka and I took a break—she's a darling sister—Kamese saw us outside and wanted us to go through for prayer as well. She said that we had given so much, and we needed to receive. I really appreciated her thoughtfulness, but I told her that as much as I wanted to go through, I couldn't stand in that line. My ankle has been hurting and that won't allow me to stand for long. Do you know what she did? She made it possible for us to have VIP front-of-the-line access to the Holy of Holies. I was like wow God!
Many people prayed for me—Pastor Bob, Ceci, Kathy, Ramon, Eddie, John Scott, John and Becky—many. I was truly blessed by the prayers of the saints.
Needless to say that when I left last night, it was about 12:45 AM. And today, besides being taken out for breakfast, all I've done is sleep, sleep, sleep. I was supposed to attend the Sound of Music seminar. I wanted to go real badd. However, I could hardly move around and slept all day.
Anyway, we worshipped and worshipped. I enjoyed that immensely—you know that! One of the guys in our congregation even played the trumpet along with us. That was so majestic.
At the end of all the worship—no, whorship was still goin on—people came to the Holy of Holies for prayer. It was a lot of folks too!
During the time that Nikka and I took a break—she's a darling sister—Kamese saw us outside and wanted us to go through for prayer as well. She said that we had given so much, and we needed to receive. I really appreciated her thoughtfulness, but I told her that as much as I wanted to go through, I couldn't stand in that line. My ankle has been hurting and that won't allow me to stand for long. Do you know what she did? She made it possible for us to have VIP front-of-the-line access to the Holy of Holies. I was like wow God!
Many people prayed for me—Pastor Bob, Ceci, Kathy, Ramon, Eddie, John Scott, John and Becky—many. I was truly blessed by the prayers of the saints.
Needless to say that when I left last night, it was about 12:45 AM. And today, besides being taken out for breakfast, all I've done is sleep, sleep, sleep. I was supposed to attend the Sound of Music seminar. I wanted to go real badd. However, I could hardly move around and slept all day.
Friday, July 20, 2007
I'm Excited
Yippee!! With the help of a friend on the GPS-talkusers list, I got all updated with the 4.0 version of my Sendero maps. I was kinda proactive I had to do a bit of calling. But they were very responsive, as always.
Yesterday, I had managed to get all the other stuff downloaded and had started reading. That was a good thing, though it seems like I never have enough time to do that. So by this morning, I was kind of all ready to get my computer thang going.
My sister, Nikka, took me to Radio Shack last night to buy a card reader. I needed one for the update. It wasn't expensive at all. While I was there, I got myself some portable speakers to work with either my BrailleNote, but especially my Victor Reader Wave. They soud sweet!!!! They cost about $20. They even came with a pouch.
I plan on using my GPS in the car as I go places. I know I'll learn about my surroundsings, since I'm still a bit new to Arizona.
Yesterday, I had managed to get all the other stuff downloaded and had started reading. That was a good thing, though it seems like I never have enough time to do that. So by this morning, I was kind of all ready to get my computer thang going.
My sister, Nikka, took me to Radio Shack last night to buy a card reader. I needed one for the update. It wasn't expensive at all. While I was there, I got myself some portable speakers to work with either my BrailleNote, but especially my Victor Reader Wave. They soud sweet!!!! They cost about $20. They even came with a pouch.
I plan on using my GPS in the car as I go places. I know I'll learn about my surroundsings, since I'm still a bit new to Arizona.
Thursday, July 19, 2007
Happy Birthday
Today is my Mommy's birthday. I guess she wouldn't be too happy with me if I told how old she was. Just know that she's 20 years older than me.
Because it's still Conference time, we haven't done anything special for her. She only wants some cash anyway. I guess in this world of bills and such, that's a good present.
Happy birthday, Mom!!!
Because it's still Conference time, we haven't done anything special for her. She only wants some cash anyway. I guess in this world of bills and such, that's a good present.
Happy birthday, Mom!!!
Wednesday, July 18, 2007
The Concert
I am happy to report that the concert was the absolute bomb! Them team members was sangin'!!!! Not singing. But sangin'!!! Man, we rehearsed like we were going crazy. We had to truly rely on the Lord. Sometimes, we didn't want to be there until late at night; trying to get rides; dealing with each other. But God had His way!!!!
We had lots of people there. Even two of my coworkers came. I was so elated. I believe that all of our rehearsal paid off. But most of all, God got the glory.
Thank you Lord, cuz you know we only had one week to practice. We knew that this couldn't have taken place without a pure miracle! And as you always do for those who walk by faith, you performed an absolute miracle!!! I praise You for coming through for us. You are faithful!!!!
We had lots of people there. Even two of my coworkers came. I was so elated. I believe that all of our rehearsal paid off. But most of all, God got the glory.
Thank you Lord, cuz you know we only had one week to practice. We knew that this couldn't have taken place without a pure miracle! And as you always do for those who walk by faith, you performed an absolute miracle!!! I praise You for coming through for us. You are faithful!!!!
Monday, July 16, 2007
Yuma Trip
Our trip to Yuma was pretty cool! We started out at about 7:00 a.m. We got to work at 6:30 a.m. We stopped at McDonald's for breakfast. I had a sausage egg biscuit with Sprite.
Rusty was a absolute gentleman. Of course, he loves Rhonda. And that's cool for me.
We kept on traveling. It took about three hours to get there. We were about 30 minutes late for our appointment, but we got there, and that's what was necessary.
I and Rhonda worked with my first client. If the counselor hadn't found a tech room right there in his office, we would've never had a computer to show ZoomText with. This is definite reason for a laptop. I'll bring this up to my boss.
Anyway, I had another client and all went well. We got home rather late and I am dog tired.
I only had one thing that tripped me out. The 3.5 version of the Sendero GPS didn't have Yuma as a city. I couldn't even use my GPS for the trip.
Rusty was a absolute gentleman. Of course, he loves Rhonda. And that's cool for me.
We kept on traveling. It took about three hours to get there. We were about 30 minutes late for our appointment, but we got there, and that's what was necessary.
I and Rhonda worked with my first client. If the counselor hadn't found a tech room right there in his office, we would've never had a computer to show ZoomText with. This is definite reason for a laptop. I'll bring this up to my boss.
Anyway, I had another client and all went well. We got home rather late and I am dog tired.
I only had one thing that tripped me out. The 3.5 version of the Sendero GPS didn't have Yuma as a city. I couldn't even use my GPS for the trip.
Sunday, July 15, 2007
The Next Day
Today is the beginning of the Quarterly Conference. This Conference will focus on the Tabernacle. When I walked into the church today, I just felt the anointing. I knew that God was already here, and He wanted to manifest Himself to those who will radically, diligently seek Him. Hebrews 11:6
I know that God is gonna show up in great ways this week! He isn't gonna wait to start moving. He has already started moving today!
I feel my usual fear that I feel at every conference. People just can't believe I feel this way. But yes, it's true. More than any other time, I feel a real nervousness. Why you ask? Cuz we have more guests than normal, and it's a time of expectancy. I dunno. It's just what I feel.
I don’t wanna be up there singing. I wish I could be in the audience. The Worship team prayed for me and for each other.
The other exciting thing that happened today is the 4.0 update to my Sendero GPS. I vowed that I haven't been using it much. But from now on, I am gonna use my GPS more often. I've been working to get it updated, and it's been a long process. I wanted to use my GPS on our trip to Yuma. I wanted to have this all squared away on Friday, but it ain't happening like that. Oh well.
I know that God is gonna show up in great ways this week! He isn't gonna wait to start moving. He has already started moving today!
I feel my usual fear that I feel at every conference. People just can't believe I feel this way. But yes, it's true. More than any other time, I feel a real nervousness. Why you ask? Cuz we have more guests than normal, and it's a time of expectancy. I dunno. It's just what I feel.
I don’t wanna be up there singing. I wish I could be in the audience. The Worship team prayed for me and for each other.
The other exciting thing that happened today is the 4.0 update to my Sendero GPS. I vowed that I haven't been using it much. But from now on, I am gonna use my GPS more often. I've been working to get it updated, and it's been a long process. I wanted to use my GPS on our trip to Yuma. I wanted to have this all squared away on Friday, but it ain't happening like that. Oh well.
Saturday, July 14, 2007
A Cool Saturday Night
We just came back from the Macaroni Grill. That food was the absolute bomb! We had the Rosemary Peasant bread with the olive oil. We had the house salad. Then the real meal came. I had chicken parmesan and Chris had the spaghetti and meatballs.
Our waiter just fell in love with Rusty. Before the end of the eveing, he asked to pet Rusty. I said that was cool. The waiter has a black lab at home. Rusty just wagged and wagged and wagged. People in the restaurant didn't even know that a dog was there. I was happy. After all, isn't that the way it should be?
Now, I'm tired. We've ben rehearsing like crazy all week long for our Tuesday evening concert at church. All I want is for the glory of God to be in the house.. For people to be delivered and set free. For miracles, signs, and wonders to happen. And when those things occur, my soul will be satisfied.
I really enjoy working with this team. We have some different personalities and attitudes sometimes, but, for the most part, we are all willing to work together and do what's necessary for the glory of God.
After church and my fried chicken tomorrow, I plan to go promptly to bed. A coworker and I have to go to Yuma on Monday and be there all day. That's gonna make for a crazy day. Well, let's just say that when this week is over, and all is well, I'll be a very happy camper.
Our waiter just fell in love with Rusty. Before the end of the eveing, he asked to pet Rusty. I said that was cool. The waiter has a black lab at home. Rusty just wagged and wagged and wagged. People in the restaurant didn't even know that a dog was there. I was happy. After all, isn't that the way it should be?
Now, I'm tired. We've ben rehearsing like crazy all week long for our Tuesday evening concert at church. All I want is for the glory of God to be in the house.. For people to be delivered and set free. For miracles, signs, and wonders to happen. And when those things occur, my soul will be satisfied.
I really enjoy working with this team. We have some different personalities and attitudes sometimes, but, for the most part, we are all willing to work together and do what's necessary for the glory of God.
After church and my fried chicken tomorrow, I plan to go promptly to bed. A coworker and I have to go to Yuma on Monday and be there all day. That's gonna make for a crazy day. Well, let's just say that when this week is over, and all is well, I'll be a very happy camper.
Friday, June 1, 2007
Prayers for my Dog Guide
Well, all that know the prayer of faith, I need you to pray right now.
Tuesday night, when Rusty happily arrived back at home, he seemed in the greatest of moods. This dog is so ddep that he had a whole welcoming committee--me Chris and Nikka. And boy, it was good to see him.
When he went to t"park," I noticed his fisces quite a bit smaller than normal.
Wednesday, Rusty seemed to be doing absolutely great. However, when he ate his breakfast, all the food came back up. I decided not to feed him until his dinner. However, before dinner came, up came a sock. I fed him half a cup at a time twice that night (for those with multiplication problems, all he had was a cup LOL).
Thursday was a downward spiral. I have had a dog with both severe diarrhea and outrageous vomit all day and night. He is even throwing up blood. It has been to the point that I had to take him to the vet this morning.
Well, they believe, like I believe, that there is a blockage. So now, I've got to take him to the emergency clinic for surgery.
They're gonna give him the barium and do x rays first. It's gonna be very expensive and even more expensive. But, in the end, he'll be doing better--and that's all that matters.
I feel like crying. I could have never thought it would end up like this. I just want my happy Rusty back. The one who loves walks and play and such. Father God, I thank you for his healing.
I'll keep you all updated on his positive progress. Thanks for reading
Tuesday night, when Rusty happily arrived back at home, he seemed in the greatest of moods. This dog is so ddep that he had a whole welcoming committee--me Chris and Nikka. And boy, it was good to see him.
When he went to t"park," I noticed his fisces quite a bit smaller than normal.
Wednesday, Rusty seemed to be doing absolutely great. However, when he ate his breakfast, all the food came back up. I decided not to feed him until his dinner. However, before dinner came, up came a sock. I fed him half a cup at a time twice that night (for those with multiplication problems, all he had was a cup LOL).
Thursday was a downward spiral. I have had a dog with both severe diarrhea and outrageous vomit all day and night. He is even throwing up blood. It has been to the point that I had to take him to the vet this morning.
Well, they believe, like I believe, that there is a blockage. So now, I've got to take him to the emergency clinic for surgery.
They're gonna give him the barium and do x rays first. It's gonna be very expensive and even more expensive. But, in the end, he'll be doing better--and that's all that matters.
I feel like crying. I could have never thought it would end up like this. I just want my happy Rusty back. The one who loves walks and play and such. Father God, I thank you for his healing.
I'll keep you all updated on his positive progress. Thanks for reading
Friday, May 25, 2007
My Trip to Detroit
I have to tell you about my miracle! You've got to know. I felt that I could get an earlier flight going home to Detroit. I was excited, but my ticket was for a later time. I decided to take my chances and get to the airport early. If worse came to worse, I would be sitting their all day.
Anyway, when I got to the airport, the lines were very look and my chances looked slim. However, I expected a miracle, though I was really scared. I did get tot he front of the line in a timely fashion--that means that my mommy hadn't left yet. They told me that I would at the front of the waiting list.
I proceeded through check-in and took my seat. While sitting, I met a young lady who had been there at least 24 hours. She had spent the night there, and didn't think that she would make it in time for her best friend's wedding. She was waiting to go stand-by, just like me.
I said to her, "In Jesus' name, I'm flying out on this next flight, and so are you!" I was really emphatic about my stance, but she was a bit hopeless.
As we sat and talked about her best friend, who lives in Michigan, time slipped by. I kinda lost track of time, actually. But soon, I heard my name being called to board the flight. I was totally ecstatic!
I could tell my friend was happy for me, but sad for herself. I told her, "Don't give up. You're next." And I prayed really hard that God was listening to me right then and I wouldn't look like a fool. And guess what? Her name was called next. She got to go too!
We didn't get to sit together, however. I did my usual thang--sleep on the plane--but when I sat down, I praised God fully for allowing me to get on that plane!
Something happened on the way off, the stewardess told me that someone was waiting to help me off the plane. It was my newest friend. Who came to help me and thank me for praying for her! I was so full of boldness right then. I told her, that it was my pleasure and that Jesus loved her and wanted to show himself to her.
If I never got to see her again, which I knew I wouldn't, I was greatful for what the Lord had done! I was thankful for His miraculous hand in my life! God had shown, in flesh, that He loved me!
Anyway, when I got to the airport, the lines were very look and my chances looked slim. However, I expected a miracle, though I was really scared. I did get tot he front of the line in a timely fashion--that means that my mommy hadn't left yet. They told me that I would at the front of the waiting list.
I proceeded through check-in and took my seat. While sitting, I met a young lady who had been there at least 24 hours. She had spent the night there, and didn't think that she would make it in time for her best friend's wedding. She was waiting to go stand-by, just like me.
I said to her, "In Jesus' name, I'm flying out on this next flight, and so are you!" I was really emphatic about my stance, but she was a bit hopeless.
As we sat and talked about her best friend, who lives in Michigan, time slipped by. I kinda lost track of time, actually. But soon, I heard my name being called to board the flight. I was totally ecstatic!
I could tell my friend was happy for me, but sad for herself. I told her, "Don't give up. You're next." And I prayed really hard that God was listening to me right then and I wouldn't look like a fool. And guess what? Her name was called next. She got to go too!
We didn't get to sit together, however. I did my usual thang--sleep on the plane--but when I sat down, I praised God fully for allowing me to get on that plane!
Something happened on the way off, the stewardess told me that someone was waiting to help me off the plane. It was my newest friend. Who came to help me and thank me for praying for her! I was so full of boldness right then. I told her, that it was my pleasure and that Jesus loved her and wanted to show himself to her.
If I never got to see her again, which I knew I wouldn't, I was greatful for what the Lord had done! I was thankful for His miraculous hand in my life! God had shown, in flesh, that He loved me!
Thursday, May 24, 2007
My Trip to Detroit
I have to tell you about my miracle! You've got to know.
When I got to the airport, the lines were truly long. My mom and I went through the lines praying, praising, and believing God. I gave her the verse the Lord had given me--Acts 27:25. I was truly scared, Chris and I prayed last night. Now, here was the time for a miracle to be performed.
When I finally got up to the counter, I was told that all the seats were sold out. However, I would be first on the stand-by list. Though I heard this news, I didn not quiver. All I knew is that I had to be on this flight. The Lord had done so much, that I felt that there was a seat for me.
When I got up to gate A12, I met a girl named Cali. We talked and talked. She told me how she had been waiting on stand-by for two days. She had a wedding in Michigan that she needed to attend and was very hopeful to get on this plane. I began to pray that not only I would have a seat, but my new friend, Cali, would have one too.
Well, the flight attendant came over to announce my seat on the 9:10 flight. I would be sitting in E19. Tears came to my eyes as I thanked the Lord for working the miracle He had promised to do. However, I wasn't satisfied. I would not be satisfied until I knew that Cali would have a seat too.
I got on my flight for free. I didn't have to pay anything for standing by because when I requested a seat, there were not available. As I was getting comfortable, Cali ran up to tell me that she, too, had gotten on the plane. I was so happy. Now, she wouldn't miss her best friend's wedding after all!
At the end of our flight, the flight attendant told me that someone was waiting to assist me. Well, guess who it was? Cali! She had told them that she wanted to help me back down to baggage claim. Now that was a miracle full circle!
Thank you Lord Jesus for being a wonderful God!!! I love you, Lord.
When I got to the airport, the lines were truly long. My mom and I went through the lines praying, praising, and believing God. I gave her the verse the Lord had given me--Acts 27:25. I was truly scared, Chris and I prayed last night. Now, here was the time for a miracle to be performed.
When I finally got up to the counter, I was told that all the seats were sold out. However, I would be first on the stand-by list. Though I heard this news, I didn not quiver. All I knew is that I had to be on this flight. The Lord had done so much, that I felt that there was a seat for me.
When I got up to gate A12, I met a girl named Cali. We talked and talked. She told me how she had been waiting on stand-by for two days. She had a wedding in Michigan that she needed to attend and was very hopeful to get on this plane. I began to pray that not only I would have a seat, but my new friend, Cali, would have one too.
Well, the flight attendant came over to announce my seat on the 9:10 flight. I would be sitting in E19. Tears came to my eyes as I thanked the Lord for working the miracle He had promised to do. However, I wasn't satisfied. I would not be satisfied until I knew that Cali would have a seat too.
I got on my flight for free. I didn't have to pay anything for standing by because when I requested a seat, there were not available. As I was getting comfortable, Cali ran up to tell me that she, too, had gotten on the plane. I was so happy. Now, she wouldn't miss her best friend's wedding after all!
At the end of our flight, the flight attendant told me that someone was waiting to assist me. Well, guess who it was? Cali! She had told them that she wanted to help me back down to baggage claim. Now that was a miracle full circle!
Thank you Lord Jesus for being a wonderful God!!! I love you, Lord.
On My Way to Detroit!!
Wonder where I've been since my last post? Well the subject says it all. Today, I'm on my way to Detroit!!!! I'm soooooo excited!!!!!
Ac 27:25 Wherefore, sirs, be of good cheer: for I believe God, that it shall be even as it was told me.
I'm going this morning on stand-by. Now, here's a miracle that is unfolding. My flight isn't until tonight at 6:05. However, I plan on getting on the 9:10 AM flight. Yes, it's sold out. However, I will have a seat on that plane. Someone might have an emergency.... anything. But, Sharonda B. Greenlaw will be on that plane. I'll be sure to write about this miracle when I get to a computer.
I'm looking forward to seeing my father and all my friends. I didn't really have a place to stay. My daddy called this morning and told me that he has prepared a room for me in his house. I've got two other friends who I have room in their house too while I'm there. God, my Father, has already prepared the way for me.
I'll be in Detroit until Tuesday morning. Rusty is with my Mommy C.G. and her family. Yes, I miss his little feet running across the home. I miss his chain jingling when he walks. I miss taking him out for his park times. But it's all a happy miss. I know that he's being well taken care of.
I'll miss my husband--whose birthday was yesterday. Go Chris!! God is really doing a work in his life. He is continually changing for the better. It's an absolute pleasure being around him--well... most of the time. *lololol* No. For real. He's a good guy.
I'll miss my mommy--riding to and from work with her; Going over her house; and all that jazz. I'll miss my sister too. Laughing and such with her crazy self.
I'll miss my co-workers. We're such a family there. We all have our little "issues," but we are a family. I reall love that too. It is something very special.
But it will all be a happy miss. It will give me great reason to come home to Arizona. I'll enjoy myself in Detroit. And I'll be happy to come home to Arizona.
Boy last year, when I first got here, I never thought I'd be loving Arizona and calling it home. My God! Things have changed!!!
I'll keep yall updated, in my usual late fashion, of my happenings in Detroit.
Ac 27:25 Wherefore, sirs, be of good cheer: for I believe God, that it shall be even as it was told me.
I'm going this morning on stand-by. Now, here's a miracle that is unfolding. My flight isn't until tonight at 6:05. However, I plan on getting on the 9:10 AM flight. Yes, it's sold out. However, I will have a seat on that plane. Someone might have an emergency.... anything. But, Sharonda B. Greenlaw will be on that plane. I'll be sure to write about this miracle when I get to a computer.
I'm looking forward to seeing my father and all my friends. I didn't really have a place to stay. My daddy called this morning and told me that he has prepared a room for me in his house. I've got two other friends who I have room in their house too while I'm there. God, my Father, has already prepared the way for me.
I'll be in Detroit until Tuesday morning. Rusty is with my Mommy C.G. and her family. Yes, I miss his little feet running across the home. I miss his chain jingling when he walks. I miss taking him out for his park times. But it's all a happy miss. I know that he's being well taken care of.
I'll miss my husband--whose birthday was yesterday. Go Chris!! God is really doing a work in his life. He is continually changing for the better. It's an absolute pleasure being around him--well... most of the time. *lololol* No. For real. He's a good guy.
I'll miss my mommy--riding to and from work with her; Going over her house; and all that jazz. I'll miss my sister too. Laughing and such with her crazy self.
I'll miss my co-workers. We're such a family there. We all have our little "issues," but we are a family. I reall love that too. It is something very special.
But it will all be a happy miss. It will give me great reason to come home to Arizona. I'll enjoy myself in Detroit. And I'll be happy to come home to Arizona.
Boy last year, when I first got here, I never thought I'd be loving Arizona and calling it home. My God! Things have changed!!!
I'll keep yall updated, in my usual late fashion, of my happenings in Detroit.
Sunday, May 13, 2007
Happy Mother's Day!
I just wanted to send a quick note wishing all the mothers--whether they have physical children or just wonderful mentors and role modes--the happiest Mother's Day ever.
As I think about this great holiday, I think of Sister Nicole Hendrix. She has been greatly used of the Lord to help me to grow spiritually. I grew by leaps and bounds and have learned countless things under her personal tutellage.
I think about Pastor Thomasyne Faulkner. A woman of God who saw greatness in me. She took me under her wing and allowed me to shepherd her flock, lead praise and worship, and preach at her fold, Spirit Filled Ministries. Never afraid to see the hidden things in people and bring them to the light. I love you!
I think of my newest edition to my mommy list--Dr. Christine Grubb. She not only has been the greatest mobility teacher ever, but she's hung in there with me, right beside me, through thick and thin. She's got the heart of gold and is a wise woman full of advice, but most of all--love. Though we work apart, I know that if anyone is in my corner, Christine is. And if I need her for anything, she's right there for me. I love you, mom.
And last but not least, I'm wishing my own mother, Voin White, the happiest Mother's Day ever. Thanks for being a friend and a role model. Thanks for being a strong woman for me to look up to.
Today, the family went to Sizzler's Steakhouse. We had a great time. It was full of laughter and joy. Each person said something great to Mommy about her.
Nikka even paid for my meal. She thanked me for helping to raise her. That truly touched my heart. May 13 has been great.
As I think about this great holiday, I think of Sister Nicole Hendrix. She has been greatly used of the Lord to help me to grow spiritually. I grew by leaps and bounds and have learned countless things under her personal tutellage.
I think about Pastor Thomasyne Faulkner. A woman of God who saw greatness in me. She took me under her wing and allowed me to shepherd her flock, lead praise and worship, and preach at her fold, Spirit Filled Ministries. Never afraid to see the hidden things in people and bring them to the light. I love you!
I think of my newest edition to my mommy list--Dr. Christine Grubb. She not only has been the greatest mobility teacher ever, but she's hung in there with me, right beside me, through thick and thin. She's got the heart of gold and is a wise woman full of advice, but most of all--love. Though we work apart, I know that if anyone is in my corner, Christine is. And if I need her for anything, she's right there for me. I love you, mom.
And last but not least, I'm wishing my own mother, Voin White, the happiest Mother's Day ever. Thanks for being a friend and a role model. Thanks for being a strong woman for me to look up to.
Today, the family went to Sizzler's Steakhouse. We had a great time. It was full of laughter and joy. Each person said something great to Mommy about her.
Nikka even paid for my meal. She thanked me for helping to raise her. That truly touched my heart. May 13 has been great.
Thursday, May 10, 2007
Debt Cancellation
I am so excited! You know, we've been doing International School of
Ministry (ISOM) at church on Wednesday nights. One of the brothers in
my group is really being vocal about debt cancellation. I have heard
him but have tended to push it to the back of my mind because of my
discouragement.
Ministry (ISOM) at church on Wednesday nights. One of the brothers in
my group is really being vocal about debt cancellation. I have heard
him but have tended to push it to the back of my mind because of my
discouragement.
You see? Before being laid off, moving to Arizona,... before life
happened, I was a great payer of my bills. I believed in it. But after
life happened, I got discouraged. It seemed that the more I paid, the
more the bill escalated. I got so discouraged until I finally said,
"What is the use?" So I just stopped paying them. I ignored the calls
of the bill collectors, and sat back and waited for the "debt
cancellation by faith" but so come my way.
But last night, something happened. As there was only me and him in
our group, and we were praying, I began to tell him how I felt about
my bills. How discouraged I was. And the more I let out my
discouragement, the more the Lord replaced it with a resolve to see
those bills extinguished. I truly repented for not paying my bills. I
repented for not speaking the Word over my debts. I repented for not
walking in faith.
As I got to work today, I said that I would at least see what one of
my bills cost and ask God for creative and witty inventions on how to
get rid of that debt. As I called, I prayed for favor. All I know is
to tell the truth, so that's what I did.
Well, the Lord gave it to me. They hooked me up with a payment plan.
I'll be done paying that bill of entirely in a year. So by next year
this time, that bill will be gone!!!
Praise the Lord! I've got two more to go.
Sunday, May 6, 2007
Pensive Moments
This week, Chris' left brace broke. When he went to the orthodics on Friday, they gave him a camwalker. When he got to work on yesterday, they told him, after he had been there a few hours, that they would not allow him to work. He could not come back until he had his brace on. That meant in eight weeks.
When he came home, my question was why? You could tell that this person who hardly complains or shows any sadness was quite disturbed. I too was sad because I know how much Chris loves to be active and out there working. All I could do is pray.
The Lord gave me, at least I think it was Him, that Christ is a warrior who faces the world head-on. These weeks, or this time off, has been designed to make him stronger in spirit. Go to everything--evangelism, cell group, Friday night live, Sunday services, everything! Do all you can to get stronger. I think Chris accepted that.
God, I pray, in your name, the name of Jesus, that you come through and show yourself strong on my husband's behalf. Draw him closer to you. Make him strong in spirit. Perform a miracle. In Jesus' name, Amen.
When he came home, my question was why? You could tell that this person who hardly complains or shows any sadness was quite disturbed. I too was sad because I know how much Chris loves to be active and out there working. All I could do is pray.
The Lord gave me, at least I think it was Him, that Christ is a warrior who faces the world head-on. These weeks, or this time off, has been designed to make him stronger in spirit. Go to everything--evangelism, cell group, Friday night live, Sunday services, everything! Do all you can to get stronger. I think Chris accepted that.
God, I pray, in your name, the name of Jesus, that you come through and show yourself strong on my husband's behalf. Draw him closer to you. Make him strong in spirit. Perform a miracle. In Jesus' name, Amen.
Thursday, May 3, 2007
Musings on Star Wars
You know, as I read Star Wars, I see how little and insignificant humanity is. Ma Brown says that "We are just a cup of dust." What I mean is, we are not the whole. We are only a small part of something very big. This is why we must stop being so self-centered and see the whole picture.
Psalm 8:4-9 (NLT) says it like this:
" 4 what are mere mortals that you should think about them, human beings that you should care for them?[a] 5 Yet you made them only a little lower than God[b] and crowned them[c] with glory and honor. 6 You gave them charge of everything you made, putting all things under their authority— 7 the flocks and the herds and all the wild animals, 8 the birds in the sky, the fish in the sea, and everything that swims the ocean currents.
9 O Lord, our Lord, your majestic name fills the earth!"
Wow, Lord. You're absolutely awesome.
Sometimes, when I go out at night and all is quiet taking Rusty to the grass, I also am reminded that there are forces out there. We truly are in a spiritual battle--good against evil--and this battle is for the souls of men. The eveil forces--also known as demons--are always fighting against God and HIs people. They are fighting to thwart the progress of the saints. However, the good news is that they are not the victors--WE ARE!
Ephesians 6:10-18 (NLT)
"10 A final word: Be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power. 11 Put on all of God’s armor so that you will be able to stand firm against all strategiesof the devil. 12 For we[a] are not fighting against flesh-and-blood enemies, but against evil rulers and authorities of the unseen world, against mighty powers in this dark world,and against evil spirits in the heavenly places.
13 Therefore, put on every piece of God’s armor so you will be able to resist the enemy in the time of evil. Then after the battle you will still be standingfirm. 14 Stand your ground, putting on the belt of truth and the body armor of God’s righteousness. 15 For shoes, put on the peace that comes from theGood News so that you will be fully prepared.[b] 16 In addition to all of these, hold up the shield of faith to stop the fiery arrows of the devil.[c] 17 Put on salvation as your helmet, and take the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God.
18 Pray in the Spirit at all times and on every occasion. Stay alert and be persistent in your prayers for all believers everywhere."
I love reading this stuff because it's a story of how the devil can play on weaknesses to ensnare people who no knowledge. How if I'm not under the control of the Father God, I too can fall and go to hell. I can never be too self-confident. My reliance must always be on God.
I finished reading "The Cestus Deception" today. Wow! It was really something. I guess now it's time to get into the meet of the matter and read the book I don't want to read--"Revenge of the Sith.
But before then, I think I'm gonna download "Jedi Trial." It's also a Clone Wars novel. It shows how Anakin Skywalker became a Jedi knight.
Psalm 8:4-9 (NLT) says it like this:
" 4 what are mere mortals that you should think about them, human beings that you should care for them?[a] 5 Yet you made them only a little lower than God[b] and crowned them[c] with glory and honor. 6 You gave them charge of everything you made, putting all things under their authority— 7 the flocks and the herds and all the wild animals, 8 the birds in the sky, the fish in the sea, and everything that swims the ocean currents.
9 O Lord, our Lord, your majestic name fills the earth!"
Wow, Lord. You're absolutely awesome.
Sometimes, when I go out at night and all is quiet taking Rusty to the grass, I also am reminded that there are forces out there. We truly are in a spiritual battle--good against evil--and this battle is for the souls of men. The eveil forces--also known as demons--are always fighting against God and HIs people. They are fighting to thwart the progress of the saints. However, the good news is that they are not the victors--WE ARE!
Ephesians 6:10-18 (NLT)
"10 A final word: Be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power. 11 Put on all of God’s armor so that you will be able to stand firm against all strategiesof the devil. 12 For we[a] are not fighting against flesh-and-blood enemies, but against evil rulers and authorities of the unseen world, against mighty powers in this dark world,and against evil spirits in the heavenly places.
13 Therefore, put on every piece of God’s armor so you will be able to resist the enemy in the time of evil. Then after the battle you will still be standingfirm. 14 Stand your ground, putting on the belt of truth and the body armor of God’s righteousness. 15 For shoes, put on the peace that comes from theGood News so that you will be fully prepared.[b] 16 In addition to all of these, hold up the shield of faith to stop the fiery arrows of the devil.[c] 17 Put on salvation as your helmet, and take the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God.
18 Pray in the Spirit at all times and on every occasion. Stay alert and be persistent in your prayers for all believers everywhere."
I love reading this stuff because it's a story of how the devil can play on weaknesses to ensnare people who no knowledge. How if I'm not under the control of the Father God, I too can fall and go to hell. I can never be too self-confident. My reliance must always be on God.
I finished reading "The Cestus Deception" today. Wow! It was really something. I guess now it's time to get into the meet of the matter and read the book I don't want to read--"Revenge of the Sith.
But before then, I think I'm gonna download "Jedi Trial." It's also a Clone Wars novel. It shows how Anakin Skywalker became a Jedi knight.
Sunday, April 29, 2007
Nikka's 20th Birthday
Happy birthday to you,
Happy birthday to you,
Happy birthday to my sister!!!!!!!
Happy birthday to you.
It's hard to believe that 20 years have gone by. My little sister, the one I helped to raise and loved her as my own, has grown into a young lady.
"Did we do something for her birthday?" you ask. Of course. She wouldn't have it any other day. We celebrated at Ruby Tuesday. It's the only promise that Mommy hadn't fulfilled to her, and we brok off the spirit of abandonment and broken promises.
The food was great. This was my first time, but certainly not my last. I got some onion strings and something else, that escapes my mind now. Whatever it was, it was definitely good.
Chris got barbecue ribs. He said they were the best ribes he's eaten from any restaurant around here.
Saints from the church gave Nikka presents. That was really sweet. I think she had a good birthday. We've got a birthday coming up in May--Chris. I bet we'll be back there at Ruby's house again. *LOL*
Happy birthday to you,
Happy birthday to my sister!!!!!!!
Happy birthday to you.
It's hard to believe that 20 years have gone by. My little sister, the one I helped to raise and loved her as my own, has grown into a young lady.
"Did we do something for her birthday?" you ask. Of course. She wouldn't have it any other day. We celebrated at Ruby Tuesday. It's the only promise that Mommy hadn't fulfilled to her, and we brok off the spirit of abandonment and broken promises.
The food was great. This was my first time, but certainly not my last. I got some onion strings and something else, that escapes my mind now. Whatever it was, it was definitely good.
Chris got barbecue ribs. He said they were the best ribes he's eaten from any restaurant around here.
Saints from the church gave Nikka presents. That was really sweet. I think she had a good birthday. We've got a birthday coming up in May--Chris. I bet we'll be back there at Ruby's house again. *LOL*
Tuesday, April 24, 2007
Star Wars Musings
I'm reading the book, "Cestus Deception." It's a Clone Wars novel. This book has helped me to regain the mindset of a warrior. Here are a few thoughts to think about from the book. These quotes come directly from "The Cestus Deception."
"... a soldier in the field didn't care about how he looked. What mattered was performance under fire."
"Risk was always a factor. Fear was a soldier's constant companion. No dishonor in that: what a man felt mattered not at all. What he did meant everything."
"The more you sweat in training, the less you bleed in combat." In my words..., if you can take it, you can make it!
"... always aware that the slightest imperfection might negatively affect performance, endangering a mission or a brother's life."
"... a soldier in the field didn't care about how he looked. What mattered was performance under fire."
"Risk was always a factor. Fear was a soldier's constant companion. No dishonor in that: what a man felt mattered not at all. What he did meant everything."
"The more you sweat in training, the less you bleed in combat." In my words..., if you can take it, you can make it!
"... always aware that the slightest imperfection might negatively affect performance, endangering a mission or a brother's life."
Monday, April 23, 2007
Pride
Ok yall, So you know, I've been reading the books and watching the
Star Wars movies. I've been keeping a few entries in a notebook about
what I've learned so far. I'll have to transfer it to this journal.
Star Wars movies. I've been keeping a few entries in a notebook about
what I've learned so far. I'll have to transfer it to this journal.
I've read so far The Phantom Menace, Attack of the Clones, and have
seen both movies. Because I don't want to see Anakin Skywalker turn
into Darth Vader, I'm reading a Clone Wars Novel before I read Revenge
of the Sith. However, since I've seen movies 4-6, I know his change is
inevitable.
As I looked a little further into Darth Vader, I saw that his name
means Dark Father. Here's what rocked me to the core last night as I
read the Wikipedia about him. "Skywalker is ultimately seduced by his
own hubris and fear of loss, as well as by the machinations of the
Sith Lord Darth Sidious."
That sounded so deep, that I had to look up a few words. Here are
their definitions:
Hubris--Overbearing pride or presumption; arrogance.
Machination--the act of plotting. A crafty scheme or cunning design
for the accomplishment of a sinister end.
Basically, Anakin's pride brought him low. As I thought about this all
last night, I could hardly sleep. Pride. What a dangerous thing to a
Christian... to any person, believer or nonbeliever in Jesus Christ.
I copied these from
www.believers.org:
4. Dangers that pride has:
4.1. The newer believer can easily become proud (1 Tim
3.6, "conceited" tuphoomai, BAG 831, is in the passive. It means
to be puffed
up, conceited, blinded, be foolish). He makes the mistake of
taking credit for spiritual growth and ministry. He forgets that he
is a product
of God's grace (1 Cor 15.10).
4.2. Proud believers reject God's authority in the church
(1 Cor 4.6, 18 "become arrogant" phusiow,
BAG 869, to be puffed up, inflated).
4.3. Proud people can disrupt the life of the church (1 Cor 4.6-7,
"become arrogant" phusiow; Jude
16;, "speak arrogantly" `uperogkos, BAG 841, of excessive size,
puffed up, swollen, haughty, bombastic).
4.4. When you take yourself
too seriously you are proud (Rom 12.3 "to think more highly"
`uperphronew, BAG 842). 1 Cor 15.10 gives the right attitude.
4.5. Proud
religious people will attempt to change you away from grace (Col 2.18
"inflated" phusiow).
4.6. Knowledge (gnwsis) that is not understood,
accepted as certain, and applied can stimulate pride (1 Cor 8.1).
Knowledge (epignwsis) that is understood, accepted as certain, and
applied is
needed for the Christian life (Eph 1.17; Phil 1.9; Col 1.9-10).
4.7. Pride can affect what you say (Jms 4.16). The result is a sin of
the tongue which can cause great damage to self and others (Jms
3.2-6). 4.8. Pride will eventually come back and hurt you
(Prov 11.2; 16.18;
29.23).
"Lord Jesus," I prayed as I tossed and turned all night, "I don't want
to be proud. It's the very spirit of Satan himself. I humble myself
before you." Pride will not allow you to see the truth about God,
yourself, or others. It's a dangerous thing to have in your life. It
lets you go up so far, deceiving yourself all the way, and at the
moment you least expect, it pulls the rug right from under you.
Prov 29:23 "A man's pride shall bring him low: but honor shall uphold
the humble in spirit."
Prov 16:18 "Pride goeth before destruction, and an haughty spirit
before a fall."
1 Peter 5:6 "Humble yourselves therefore under the mighty hand of God,
that He may exalt you in due time:
In closing, my prayer has been Psalm 51:10: "Create in me a clean
heart, O God; and renew a right spirit within me."
Friday, April 13, 2007
Sedona Trip: Day 1
Well, we made it! We made it to Sedona yesterday at 8:54 a.m. The day
before, Nikka and Mommy got a Dodge Caliber from Thrifty. Man, it's
nice.
We met my coworkers at my job at 6:00. The trip was very easy, but I
thought we should follow them. Traffic wouldn't allow that, so after
we got lost for a minute getting onto the I17, we got found and all
was well. We ended up stopping at this McDonald's. When we got there,
guess who had alson just pulled up? My coworkers.
We laughed,cuz though they had tried to call, I didn't hear the phone,
So I had no way of knowing where they were. Anyway, after that, we
drove straight here.
The conference started at 9:30, and we were definitely on time.
I asked my sister to find me a place near a plug. S3e did. I was in a
corner, but I didn't mind. I didn't want my BrailleNote to lose
porwer. Trust me. The night before, I had dealt with 27 documents for
this conference. That was a lot. Plus my Star Wars book for when
things got kinda boring. I couldn't face not having battery power.
Anyway, the conference went well. We ate at the restaurant for lunch.
All I have to say about that f9od is, very good, but toooooo
expensive. I had a mandarin chicken salad with a cup of iced tea. My
bill was $15.36. My sister had chicken tenders and a cup of iced tea.
Her bill was $10.93. But this is a hotel--a resort even--so what do I
expect?
Our hotel is the Radisson Poco Diablo Resort in Sedona, AZ.
Towards the end of the conference, we got our room. Beautiful room
with Sleep Number queen-sized beds. The girl at the desk had taken a
liking to us For rasons unknown to us. We liked her too. very friendly
and personable. She showed us the room herself.
Once all was over, we found food. We wanted to hurry up befor it got
dark. We settled on Joey's Italian Restaurant. After driving round and
round, we finally got to it. It was a real Italian restaurant. I
ordered the chicken parmigiana--as always. Nikki ordered fettuccini
with sausage.
The food was absolutely excellent. We had hot bread and salad too. My
meal came to $22.63.
When we got back to our room, I had one aim and one goal--SLEEP. nikki
just knew I would be up reading my Star Wars' but not me. After she
helped my hair, cuz it had gotten wet with the rain, I read a few
emails, and went promptly to bed.
My sleep was good. I woke up once and watched a little TV with her,
and then I talked to Chris, and went back to bed.
I awoke this morning at 4:15 to a dog full of excitement. It was his
parktime. We left the room with me praying to God that we would make
it back quickly and safely.
We found our way to the rocks for him to pea, but I got lost coming
back. We walked around and around. I called Nikka, but she was
snoring, oblivious to any phones. I even called the hotel to get them
to transfer the call to my room, but to no avail.
I heard a guy coughing, I latched onto the sound. I turned his way and
asked for directions. He said to follow the path and make a left. He
watched me, and I did it. T3ank you, Jesus.
Right i s'ti
before, Nikka and Mommy got a Dodge Caliber from Thrifty. Man, it's
nice.
We met my coworkers at my job at 6:00. The trip was very easy, but I
thought we should follow them. Traffic wouldn't allow that, so after
we got lost for a minute getting onto the I17, we got found and all
was well. We ended up stopping at this McDonald's. When we got there,
guess who had alson just pulled up? My coworkers.
We laughed,cuz though they had tried to call, I didn't hear the phone,
So I had no way of knowing where they were. Anyway, after that, we
drove straight here.
The conference started at 9:30, and we were definitely on time.
I asked my sister to find me a place near a plug. S3e did. I was in a
corner, but I didn't mind. I didn't want my BrailleNote to lose
porwer. Trust me. The night before, I had dealt with 27 documents for
this conference. That was a lot. Plus my Star Wars book for when
things got kinda boring. I couldn't face not having battery power.
Anyway, the conference went well. We ate at the restaurant for lunch.
All I have to say about that f9od is, very good, but toooooo
expensive. I had a mandarin chicken salad with a cup of iced tea. My
bill was $15.36. My sister had chicken tenders and a cup of iced tea.
Her bill was $10.93. But this is a hotel--a resort even--so what do I
expect?
Our hotel is the Radisson Poco Diablo Resort in Sedona, AZ.
Towards the end of the conference, we got our room. Beautiful room
with Sleep Number queen-sized beds. The girl at the desk had taken a
liking to us For rasons unknown to us. We liked her too. very friendly
and personable. She showed us the room herself.
Once all was over, we found food. We wanted to hurry up befor it got
dark. We settled on Joey's Italian Restaurant. After driving round and
round, we finally got to it. It was a real Italian restaurant. I
ordered the chicken parmigiana--as always. Nikki ordered fettuccini
with sausage.
The food was absolutely excellent. We had hot bread and salad too. My
meal came to $22.63.
When we got back to our room, I had one aim and one goal--SLEEP. nikki
just knew I would be up reading my Star Wars' but not me. After she
helped my hair, cuz it had gotten wet with the rain, I read a few
emails, and went promptly to bed.
My sleep was good. I woke up once and watched a little TV with her,
and then I talked to Chris, and went back to bed.
I awoke this morning at 4:15 to a dog full of excitement. It was his
parktime. We left the room with me praying to God that we would make
it back quickly and safely.
We found our way to the rocks for him to pea, but I got lost coming
back. We walked around and around. I called Nikka, but she was
snoring, oblivious to any phones. I even called the hotel to get them
to transfer the call to my room, but to no avail.
I heard a guy coughing, I latched onto the sound. I turned his way and
asked for directions. He said to follow the path and make a left. He
watched me, and I did it. T3ank you, Jesus.
Right i s'ti
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Wednesday, April 11, 2007
Exciting News!
I am writing with exciting news today! I bet you can tell by my entry
one of the things I'm gonna say. Well... you're right. Chris is coming
home today! I am so happy that I will have a little time to spend with
him before I go to Sedona tomorrow. But you'll never get the next one,
so I'll have to tell you.
Guess what I did today? I went to Fry's by myself. That's right. you
heard it straight from the horse's mouth. Me and Rusty took a trip.
Nikka took us there.
When I got there, I asked for the customer service desk. I had made
the correct turn and was closer than I thought. They were very kind
about getting someone to help, and my wait was very short.
When the guy came, I directed him in the best way to lead us. He got a
cart. Rusty and I walked behind it. He pulled it. It was peachy.
My first stop was the bank. You should've seen the teller. He was too
surprised to see me come alone. He even asked where my family was. I
wasn't angry, because that's who I normally come with. But boy, did my
loan trip do loads for the stereotypes of blind people and my
independence too.
I notified him that they were all preoccupied with their business. I
still had needs to take care of. That's why I was there. He was quite
kind; you could tell that his eyes were being enlightened. I got my
money and went next to the deli.
There at the deli, I wanted a baked chicken for Chris when he finally
gets home. He selected the chicken. I asked the lady if they had any
eggplant wraps today. She said yes, so I bought one. I paid right
there at the deli and the helper guy got us to the door.
Rusty and I proptly walked out. He crossed the street in the exact
plce. We turned left and then right at the gate. I praised him
profusely. My, what a great guide he is. I t3en kept telling him that
we needed to get home. We proceeded on our regular walk home,as I
listened for all the audible clues. The water fall. The mailboxes. We
crossed the street and I waited to feel the metal plates.
We turned left and walked toward Mommy's house. We stopped for him to
do his business. I picked up my wares, and we marched right on home.
For his good work, he got lots of hugs and two biscuits.
Yeah! We did it! What a boost to my day!
one of the things I'm gonna say. Well... you're right. Chris is coming
home today! I am so happy that I will have a little time to spend with
him before I go to Sedona tomorrow. But you'll never get the next one,
so I'll have to tell you.
Guess what I did today? I went to Fry's by myself. That's right. you
heard it straight from the horse's mouth. Me and Rusty took a trip.
Nikka took us there.
When I got there, I asked for the customer service desk. I had made
the correct turn and was closer than I thought. They were very kind
about getting someone to help, and my wait was very short.
When the guy came, I directed him in the best way to lead us. He got a
cart. Rusty and I walked behind it. He pulled it. It was peachy.
My first stop was the bank. You should've seen the teller. He was too
surprised to see me come alone. He even asked where my family was. I
wasn't angry, because that's who I normally come with. But boy, did my
loan trip do loads for the stereotypes of blind people and my
independence too.
I notified him that they were all preoccupied with their business. I
still had needs to take care of. That's why I was there. He was quite
kind; you could tell that his eyes were being enlightened. I got my
money and went next to the deli.
There at the deli, I wanted a baked chicken for Chris when he finally
gets home. He selected the chicken. I asked the lady if they had any
eggplant wraps today. She said yes, so I bought one. I paid right
there at the deli and the helper guy got us to the door.
Rusty and I proptly walked out. He crossed the street in the exact
plce. We turned left and then right at the gate. I praised him
profusely. My, what a great guide he is. I t3en kept telling him that
we needed to get home. We proceeded on our regular walk home,as I
listened for all the audible clues. The water fall. The mailboxes. We
crossed the street and I waited to feel the metal plates.
We turned left and walked toward Mommy's house. We stopped for him to
do his business. I picked up my wares, and we marched right on home.
For his good work, he got lots of hugs and two biscuits.
Yeah! We did it! What a boost to my day!
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Tuesday, April 10, 2007
A Quick but Resounding Thanks!
Here's a great story I just read:
One day, when I was a freshman in high school,
I saw a kid from my class was walking home from school.
His name was Kyle.
It looked like he was
carrying all of his books.
I thought to myself, "Why would anyone bring home all his books on a Friday?
He must really be a nerd."
I had quite a weekend planned (parties and a football game with my
friends tomorrow afternoon), so I shrugged my shoulders and went on.
As I was walking, I saw a bunch of kids running toward him.
They ran at him, knocking all his books out of his arms and tripping
him so he landed in the dirt.
His glasses went flying, and I saw them land in the grass about ten
feet from him.
He looked up and I saw this terrible sadness in his eyes
My heart went out to him. So, I jogged over to him as he crawled
around looking for his glasses, and I saw a tear in his eye.
As I handed him his glasses, I said, "Those guys are jerks.
"
They really should get lives.
" He looked at me and said, "Hey thanks!"
There was a big smile on his face.
It was one of those smiles that showed real gratitude.
I helped him pick up his books, and asked him where he lived.
As it turned out, he lived near me, so I asked him why I had never
seen him before.
He said he had gone to private school before now.
I would have never hung out with a private school kid before.
We talked all the way home, and I carried some of his books.
He turned out to be a pretty cool kid.
I asked him if he wanted to play a little football
with my friends
He said yes.
We hung out all weekend and the more I got to know Kyle, the more I
liked him, and my friends thought the same of him.
Monday morning came, and there was Kyle with the huge stack of books again.
I stopped him and said, "Boy, you are gonna really build some serious
muscles with this pile of books everyday!
" He just laughed and handed me half the books.
Over the next four years, Kyle and I became best friends..
When we were seniors we began to think about college.
Kyle decided on Georgetown and I was going to Duke.
I knew that we would always be friends, that the miles would never
be a problem.
He was going to be a doctor and I was going for business on a football
scholarship.
Kyle was valedictorian of our class.
I teased him all the time about being a nerd.
He had to prepare a speech for graduation.
I was so glad it wasn't me having to get up there and speak
Graduation day, I saw Kyle.
He looked great.
He was one of those guys that really found himself during high school.
He filled out and actually looked good in glasses.
He had more dates than I had and all the girls loved him.
Boy, sometimes I was jealous!
Today was one of those days.
I could see that he was nervous about his speech.
So, I smacked him on the back and said, "Hey, big guy, you'll be great!"
He looked at me with one of those looks (the really grateful one) and smiled.
" Thanks," he said.
As he started his speech, he cleared his throat, and began
"Graduation is a time to thank those who helped you make it through
those tough years.
Your parents, your teachers, your siblings, maybe a coach...but mostly
your friends...
I am here to tell all of you that being a friend to someone is the
best gift you can give them.
I am going to tell you a story."
I just looked at my friend with disbelief as he told the
story of the first day we met.
He had planned to kill himself over the weekend.
He talked of how he had cleaned out his locker so his Mom wouldn't
have to do it later and was carrying his stuff home.
He looked hard at me and gave me a little smile.
"Thankfully, I was saved.
My friend saved me from doing the unspeakable."
I heard the gasp go through the crowd as this handsome, popular boy
told us all about his weakest moment.
I saw his Mom and dad looking at me and smiling that same grateful smile.
Not until that moment did I realize it's depth.
Never underestimate the power of your actions.
With one small gesture you can change a person's life.
For better or for worse.
God puts us all in each others lives to impact one another in some way.
Look for God in others.
As I read this, my heart welled up with thanks to all those who've
made my current situation more bearable. Thanks to my Mommy who has
blessed me beyond beliefe by taking me back and forth to the hospital,
therapy, work... and wherever. Never complaining and never fussing.
Just serving.
Thanks to my sister, Leniqua for being a great little sister. She
hangs out with me, just being herself, which makes me laugh
hysterically. This helps me take my mind off of myself and my
emotions. Laughter is good, like a medicine. (prov 17:22) She has
always accepted me for me and treated me as such. She's another person
who knows me better than I would like to give her credit for *smile*.
She's fun the be with and very sensitive to me. She's a darling!
Thanks to John and Becky for visiting Chris in the hospital and Becky
calling to see what I need. I haven't called her yet, but I know that
she will help in a heartbeat.
And to all others of my church family, coworkers, and all for just
causing my life to be so much more enjoyable. Thanks fot the big and
small things you do that make my life much more meaningful.
Sad and Depressed Today
I know that lots of time has elapsed since my last post. It just seems
that busyness overtakes me and I want to write, but then sleep takes
over me and... Dang it! It's time to start this old mary-go-round all
over again.
that busyness overtakes me and I want to write, but then sleep takes
over me and... Dang it! It's time to start this old mary-go-round all
over again.
Anyway, the biggest news right now is Chris' thyroid surgery. They
performed a thyroidectomy--taking the thyroid out. Then, they did
autotransplantation--putting a piece of the thyroid back in his
body--his is in his arm. I had never heard of such a thing. My my my,
how medicine has progressed. Anyway, his surgery was Friday. All went
well. God is healing him up totally and fully!
As of Tuesday, which is today, he's still in the hospital. I keep
telling myself that all things will happen in His time. God knows what
is best and at what time. In the meantime, I'm fighting back some
strong emotions of oppression and depression.
You want the truth? Well, here it is... I miss him. I miss his jokes.
He's so good-natured. Never letting life get him down for too long. I
miss his keen sense of observation. I hardly have to say things to him
about myself or my thoughts. He... just seems to know. He actually
knows me much better than I give him credit for. And whether you know
it or not, I can be a trip (but only sometimes... LOL), and he's
patiently there.
Beneath his hard, joking exterior, he has the softest heart. And me?
I'm all about the inside, the stuff that most folks won't stick around
long enough to see.
I'm just missing you today, Chris. I pray that the Lord Jesus
continues your full and quick recovery. God bless you is my prayer.
Love,
Your wife
Saturday, March 24, 2007
Thanks, God!
As I sit here on my bed this morning, my mind goes back to a year ago
this time. What was March 24th like for me in 2006? Short? Very
depressing.
I lived in my mom's house. I had been here since Feb. 14th. Chris
wasn't due here until the 28th. During those 14 days, all I did was
watch TV, go online, walk Rusty (that is when my mommy had time, since
I didn't really know the complex), sleep a bunch, and made phone
calls. I was sad about being by myself all the time. My mommy worked a
lot back then. The other thing I did was to ask God why. Why the heck
did I leave my two jobs, lots of friends, new home I was about to buy
6come here to a place I didn't know?
When Chris got here, I was glad to have company during the day, I
wanted to be out working though. I didn't know anyone. I truly was
angry and depressed.
We did fun stuff during the evening some days. We went out driving,
and some mornings, we even went out to breakfa/. Now, we were both
bored. He wanted to work and so did I.
He did get a job on April 13. He started working at Sam's Club on
April 13. I was so happy for him, but inside, I was sad that he was
working and I wasn't.
It wasn't until June 19 that I started volunteering. Every weekday, I
went to volunteer at AIB. though I made half of minimum wage, I didn't
go there for the money, I went there for my own sanity, work
experience, and believed that I would soon be an employee here.
Of course, that carried on until October and now, God has blessed me
with employment at Arizona Industries for the Blind.
this time. What was March 24th like for me in 2006? Short? Very
depressing.
I lived in my mom's house. I had been here since Feb. 14th. Chris
wasn't due here until the 28th. During those 14 days, all I did was
watch TV, go online, walk Rusty (that is when my mommy had time, since
I didn't really know the complex), sleep a bunch, and made phone
calls. I was sad about being by myself all the time. My mommy worked a
lot back then. The other thing I did was to ask God why. Why the heck
did I leave my two jobs, lots of friends, new home I was about to buy
6come here to a place I didn't know?
When Chris got here, I was glad to have company during the day, I
wanted to be out working though. I didn't know anyone. I truly was
angry and depressed.
We did fun stuff during the evening some days. We went out driving,
and some mornings, we even went out to breakfa/. Now, we were both
bored. He wanted to work and so did I.
He did get a job on April 13. He started working at Sam's Club on
April 13. I was so happy for him, but inside, I was sad that he was
working and I wasn't.
It wasn't until June 19 that I started volunteering. Every weekday, I
went to volunteer at AIB. though I made half of minimum wage, I didn't
go there for the money, I went there for my own sanity, work
experience, and believed that I would soon be an employee here.
Of course, that carried on until October and now, God has blessed me
with employment at Arizona Industries for the Blind.
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Thursday, March 15, 2007
Some Sad News
I have the saddest news. A very good coworker from my previous job and
a great advocate in the disability community died yesterday. He died
of cancer.
a great advocate in the disability community died yesterday. He died
of cancer.
My heart is broken because the world has lost a great advocate for the
rights of people first, independence for people with disabilities
second. William, you will truly be missed.
I first met William when I went to Great Lakes Center for Independent
Living as a consumer. I was young and impressionable. I was depressed,
cuz I had made a mess of my life. And my dad told me that I needed to
become more independent. I didn't like this recommendation, but I knew
it was true and my daddy was right.
So with the phone number given to me by a friend from school, I
called. William was one of my teachers as I attended Independence
University. My dreams and hopes were being restored as I met people
who had disabilities, just like me, who were LIVING.
William was a great person; very outgoing, friendly, and caring. He
was full of life! I enjoyed being in his class.
In 2000, I started working for Great Lakes. Now, William and I were
co-workers. We worked together throughout the close of that center and
during my time in Detroit at the Disability Network. Always a delight
to work with. I admired him, cuz he would get the job done. I like
folks that get the job done.
William was very well-respected throughout the community. He helped
many people. He was an asset whereever he went. William, I'll miss
you.
May the peace of God comfort the family and all of us who will miss
him greatly during this extremely difficult time.
God bless
Sunday, March 4, 2007
There Must Be More Than This
Hey,
I've got some thoughts that are probably scattered. They're not in any
order. I'm gonna try and write them here. Forgive me if they're not
understandable at first. I know the Lord will give you understanding.
I've got some thoughts that are probably scattered. They're not in any
order. I'm gonna try and write them here. Forgive me if they're not
understandable at first. I know the Lord will give you understanding.
I was listening to John Francis this morning. He talked about the era
of fear in the church vs. the era of grace and celebration. He, like
I, grew up in this era of fear. It wasn't all fear though. You found
people wailing and praying, fasting, and preaching the "or else"
sermons. There was no "whould you like to," "This is an option," or
any of that. We only heard "You must," or "You better." People fasted
a lot, prayed a lot, warfared a lot.
I grew up in a church like that. I don't mean grew up in years, but in
God. The church I went to, you fasted, whether it was a holiday or
not. You fasted because God had called a fast. You prayed, no matter
what time it was. You did it because God said. The preaching? There
was no sugar-coating or candy-coating. It was raw and uncut.
I miss some of that time tremendously. However, there were people who
did things out of duty, not out of love and joy. I understand that.
I'm even sure I did some things out of duty too.
But now, the era of grace and celebration has come. We're so happy. We
come to church talking and laughing. Sometimes, we don't even respect
the house of God. There are no all-night prayers and such anymore.
It's all about "having a good time in God." This is a necessary era.
People should know the joy of God. I myself remember longing for the
celebratory side of God back in the era of fear.
Now, being in the "joy" era, I long for the "fear" era. But I see that
it's not about either. We must have a meeting, a union of the two
eras.
We must bring back the all-night prayers and fasting. The
unadulterated Bible studies where we're not trying to worry about
offending people. We've got to once again respect the house of God.
But at the same time, we must serve God out of joy and celebrate Him.
Oh, how I long for that meeting. That union. I enjoyed so much seeing
demons casted out. I miss the heavy prayers. I long for the raw Word.
But I also like the celebration of God. I enjoy the joy of the Lord.
Lord, bring these two eras together, for they are both expressions of
Yourself. Teach me how to live in the union and unity of these
eras--where there is both sobriety and joy; fear of the Lord and love.
Oh--- that's what I want.
As I close this entry, please, no one take offense. I'm not pointing
to any church, teaching, sermon, person in particular. I'm expressing
my heart in my journal that you chose to read.
God bless,
Sharonda
Friday, March 2, 2007
Extremely Jazzed
I had to tell the world how jazzed I am today with my dog, Rusty!!!!
I have never been able to take him on a bus. The times that I have, it
was an utter catastrophe. He would jump, howl, bark, try and run to
the door, and the list goes on and on. So, finally, I just gave up.
Thank goodness I have a caring family who could chip in and help, or I
might not have Rusty today. I'd have to turn him back into the school.
Anyways, my adopted Mommy (KG) had recommended a couple months ago
that I purchase a pinch collar for him. She had had great success with
her dogs and thought it would be good for me to try. Well, I knew very
little about this collar, but I trusted her judgment implicitly. So, I
bought one.
I have seen so many changes for the better with this collar in my
Rusty. I no longer have to pull and jerk and joke and scream. He
minds--and that's with not much correction on my part. But I thought
the bus would be different--especially from what I knew of the past.
Well, today, we took the Dial-a-Ride to PV mall. He had improved 100%
I was floored with awe and amazement. We walked around a bit then took
the main linehaul home. He was wonderful!
I am so excited and find this a great relief. I see that I am no
longer limited to waiting for cars and rides from others. We'll
finally go places together and be a REAL team.
GO RUSTY!!! HALLELUJAH, JESUS!!!!
Tuesday, February 27, 2007
Today
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Hey yall,
I know. I've not kept you on point as to what's been happening with
me. I'm gonna do better. But this is what happened today.
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Hey yall,
I know. I've not kept you on point as to what's been happening with
me. I'm gonna do better. But this is what happened today.
I went to the foot doctor. My ankle has gone down quite a bit,
however, it is still swollen. I like to say that it's at it's normal
swelling place. The doctor refers to it as chronic swelling.
Anyway, the sad news is that I still have to wear the camwalker
another month. I still have to take the Celebrex. I still have to use
the ice pack. And, I'm adding something new--physical therapy. I'll
have to go twice a week.
Yes, it's true. I'm a little sad about it. I was truly hoping to get
off these muscle relaxers. They make me feel sleepy and slow me down.
In addition, I don't like that Rusty doesn't get his regular walks. In
fact, I'm gonna contact someone to see about paying them to walk him
daily. He shouldn't suffer cuz I can't do it.
I'm happy though because it has indeed gone down. I appreciate Dr.
Laurino's aggressive approach to get my ankle back to it's original
place.
So that's today's scoop.
Friday, February 9, 2007
To My Puppy Raiser
Anyone want to know what a guide dog does? Here's a great poem that
explains. I call it an Ode from Rusty!
explains. I call it an Ode from Rusty!
Title: To My Puppy Raiser
Written by: LINDA LINDEMAN-DeCARLO Puppy Raiser
Willoughby, Ohio
I¹m going to be a Leader Dog, hear me when I say,
It¹s what I want, it¹s who I am, and I will have my day.
You did your job as raiser, got me on the right track,
Now I¹m going to learn to guide, I don¹t think I¹ll be back.
I¹ve done my year of social, I¹ll now train with the best,
I¹ll know what I am doing, I will put your fears to rest.
I¹ll work out in the world and I¹ll never be alone,
I¹ll get my master safe to work, and then I¹ll get him home.
I¹ll wait in heavy traffic until it¹s safe to cross,
And my master will obey me, Œcause he¹ll know that I¹m the boss.
Loud noises won¹t distract me, I¹ll always stand my ground,
And I promise that I¹ll stop at curbs, and puddles, go around.
I was born to be a Leader Dog and I will serve him well,
For I know his vision is impaired, that much I can tell.
I'll become his best friend and will never steer him wrong,
And I will cuddle up with him, and sleep the whole night long.
I¹ll be a perfect Leader Dog, you can count on me,
It¹s what I want, it¹s who I am, it¹s what I¹m going to be!
Copyright 2007 - May be reproduced with byline intact.
Born August 4, 2003, Rusty was indeed already predestined for his
lifelong journey--to be a Leader Dog. "Leader Dog" is the name of a
school. The general term for a dog guiding the blind/visually impaired
is a dog guide.
The first year of his life, Rusty was socialized and grew up on a
cherry farm in Michigan. His puppy raisers told me that he loved to
run in the fields. He loved to go to the fruit market and bury his
nose in the peanut boxes. Before his raisers could stop him, he had
peanuts in his mouth, eating them joyfully. Indeed, peanuts are one of
his favorite treats.
His companion in those days was a Beagle named Barney. He and Barney
were best buds and played lots.
After a year on this farm, he was taken back to Leader Dogs for more
advanced training. Before training, however, they did medical
examinations on him to determine if he was healthy enough for such a
great feat. Obviously, he passed the test, cuz he's with me.
Well anyway, he stayed in the kennels until he was picked up by a
trainer. Daton Johnson picked him up and Rusty was given four months
of HARD work. Ideally, after the four months, Rusty was to meet his
"forever person" (The person he would spend the rest of his life
guiding). But the class had no match for Rusty.
A friend of mine told me as I prepared to go to Leader Dogs that there
was a match made in heaven just for me. That match was definitely
Rusty. He couldn't be put to work then, so he waited another four
months. I'm sure this was frustrating for Daton who had worked
tirelessly with Rusty. It had to be also hard for his raisers who
waited anxiously for news of Rusty's "forever person."
Well, I came to Leader Dogs on July 31. I was introduced to Rusty on
August 3 of 2005!
More later, cuz I've got to feed Rusty!
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Thursday, February 8, 2007
Yesterday Was a Good Day
Well, I guess my subject says it all! Yesterday was a good day. Things
didn't go the way I planned them, but they were definitely the way God
planned them, and I was truly happy.
didn't go the way I planned them, but they were definitely the way God
planned them, and I was truly happy.
I made contact with one of my former Pastors on Monday night. (She
also was my former supervisor and is still one of my adopted moms. She
was the one God used to ordain me as a minister. She also was the one
who married Chris and me. I served as their lead intercessor and their
Praise and Worship Leader while there.) She had been here since Sunday
night for the Pastors and Leaders Conference at Phoenix First. We had
already agreed that she couldn't go home without us seeing each other.
Well, my plan was for us to go out to dinner or something like that. I
let one of my "Moms" know, and she was most willing to keep my guide
dog with her. I had it all planned. We would go and have fun!
Well, when she got here, she said that she had just come from a
luncheon. Therefore, I knew that she couldn't be hungry. She said that
she just came by to see me and talk. I thought that was so sweet and
kind. I was very happy to see her. However, I was sad that I had
inconvenienced my other mom with Rusty. The Lord told me not to worry,
I would still have a great day.
We talked. I asked about everyone I could remember at Spirit Filled
Ministries. It was wonderful to see her. I think the last time I saw
her was in 2005.
Well, other things happened that could be viewed as catastrophes. One
was that I didn't have a ride to work yesterday morning. My Mommy had
a doctor's appointment and wasn't going in right then. And Tuesday
night, when Chris got home, I found out that he had to work in the
morning. Of course, my natural inclination was to panic. But I was
like "Well God, if I get a ride, I'll be at work. If not, I'm sleeping
in.)
So this morning, I called my cell group leader and friend. She has
truly been there for me to talk and vent to. I know for certain that
it stays right there. And everyone knows that's the way I like my
business. Anyway, she was most willing to assist me. So, off to work I
go!
On the way, her husband asked me about how much time Chris and I spend
together. As I thought about it, I had to say hardly none. I had been
thinking about this sad phenomenon the other day. However, I gave it
over to Jesus and I trusted that He would and could work that out. We
(her husband and I) discussed this in great length. We talked about
Chris and I being kinda like ships in the night. I laughed and said,
"Well, no one is ever bored at our house." He begin to stress this as
a need for our marriage. I agreed and told him that I trusted the Lord
to work this out.
Well, guess what? He did! When I got of work, there was no Rusty. So,
Chris and I had the grandest time. I really enjoyed myself! We took a
walk to throw trash away and get mail out of the box. We just held
hands and talked and laughed. My mom saw us and said we looked like we
used to before we were married. It was just fun shooting the breeze!
We saw kids having karate class on the lawn. We breathed in the warm
Arizona air. We just enjoyed life.
When we got home, we decided to go out to eat. We went to Sizzlers.
Man! That was some good food! I had the steak and shrimp scampy. He
had the fisherman's platter. Each meal came with the all-you-can-eat
buffet. We ate to overflowing. All I could do is come home. Shish! I
was full and so was Chris.
I started working on my computer and got the laptop finally up on the
network. I had emailed some folks for help, but they didn't reespond.
Sometimes, I have to remember that I don't need them always. I need
the Lord and the Holy Spirit. Well I called Cox, waited forever, got a
technician, worked with my husband, and... voila! I'm on the network!
Thank you, Jesus!
While I was working, Rusty came home. Boy, was he excited! He ran,
jumped, barked, rolled over and played. What a dog! My mom told me how
well he had behaved while out with her. They sang his favorite song
"Happy Birthday," and he joined in (you should hear it. It's
hilarious.) She said he was a great dog.
Around 11:30, we went to bed. God had orchestrated time together for
my husband and me, allowed me to see my Detroit mom, and helped me get
the computer fixed--all in one day! I couldn't have done it better!
Tuesday, February 6, 2007
A Little Ranting
Yesterday's Transplant seminar went very well. Chris is really into
it, and that's good. There must be a whole bunch of praying on this
one. It's best to start now. This transplant thing is not a laughing
matter.
it, and that's good. There must be a whole bunch of praying on this
one. It's best to start now. This transplant thing is not a laughing
matter.
Anyway, how am I feeling today? Not too god. The camwalker that I'm
wearing on my right food causes me to walk lopsided. More pressure is
being put on the left foot, thereby causing me a blister. And though I
woke up feeling good, as the day has progressed, I'm really tired.
I've been thinking about going to Detroit. I finally decided to check
the prices. Man!!! That mess is high! It's about $365. Times and
prices have really changed. Maybe someone will donate to my cause. I
sure wouldn't be mad.
Well, that's all I'm gonna say for now. I'm really wondering how much
of this tiredness is physical? Hmmmm.
I'll check in soon.
Monday, February 5, 2007
Today, February 5
I'm finally up to today. I came to work feeling quite good. I have to go to a Transplant Seminar with Chris. He is finding out all his options for a kidney transplant. Personally, I have never nagged him about it, though the doctors feel he'd be great for one.
He has seen people do well after a transplant. He has also seen people not do well and die after a transplant. I feel that it has to be a decision that is solely up to him. No one else will be in that hospital, taking that medicine, going under... but Chris. Romans 1:45 says "...Let every man be fully persuaded in his own mind." I think that people, especially saints, should do a lot more living by that Scripture. Instead, sometimes, we try and sell people or even coerce them into doing things. Because they're not truly sold out on it, they don't try as hard; or they complain while they are doing it; and some of those times result in failure. Instead, we should pray more often and let God handle it. After all, isn't He God? Isn't He the only one who can change a heart?
I have promised to be by his side through it all, no matter what his decision may be.
I want Chris to be happy. That's all I want.
So today is the seminar at Good Samaritan transplant center. I'll let you all know how it goes.
He has seen people do well after a transplant. He has also seen people not do well and die after a transplant. I feel that it has to be a decision that is solely up to him. No one else will be in that hospital, taking that medicine, going under... but Chris. Romans 1:45 says "...Let every man be fully persuaded in his own mind." I think that people, especially saints, should do a lot more living by that Scripture. Instead, sometimes, we try and sell people or even coerce them into doing things. Because they're not truly sold out on it, they don't try as hard; or they complain while they are doing it; and some of those times result in failure. Instead, we should pray more often and let God handle it. After all, isn't He God? Isn't He the only one who can change a heart?
I have promised to be by his side through it all, no matter what his decision may be.
I want Chris to be happy. That's all I want.
So today is the seminar at Good Samaritan transplant center. I'll let you all know how it goes.
Sunday, February 4
Today was a good day. It was the first day that I really felt like walking. I was up on time and everything. So, after getting dressed, I surprised everybody, and walked to my Mom's house. I figured I'd save her a trip and Rusty and I could get some exercise at the same time.
Yes, she was thoroughly surprised.
I think that church went well. I was really happy and enjoyed Praise and Worship. Miss Cathy's sermon was great. Any message on the Holy Spirit is great!
Afterwards, Mama had promised to take us to dinner. We chose the Golden Corral. Man, we were not disappointed. I ate so much, I was ready for sleeping when I got home.
But I didn't sleep. Instead, I kept my promise to Rusty and took him for a walk. Of course, he was tooooo excited. He's a great dog and I feel he deserves his exercise, which he needs to stay healthy and happy. He did great on the walk. I was tired when I got home.
After taking a nap (for three hours). I got up and started on my computer. That wasn't long-lived 'cause Rusty wanted to play. I played with him and talked to Chris until about midnight.
I seem to have a problem of going back to bed too late on Sundays. This messes up my schedule on Monday, and I'm too sleepy. But I did good last night and woke up feeling good in the morning.
Yes, she was thoroughly surprised.
I think that church went well. I was really happy and enjoyed Praise and Worship. Miss Cathy's sermon was great. Any message on the Holy Spirit is great!
Afterwards, Mama had promised to take us to dinner. We chose the Golden Corral. Man, we were not disappointed. I ate so much, I was ready for sleeping when I got home.
But I didn't sleep. Instead, I kept my promise to Rusty and took him for a walk. Of course, he was tooooo excited. He's a great dog and I feel he deserves his exercise, which he needs to stay healthy and happy. He did great on the walk. I was tired when I got home.
After taking a nap (for three hours). I got up and started on my computer. That wasn't long-lived 'cause Rusty wanted to play. I played with him and talked to Chris until about midnight.
I seem to have a problem of going back to bed too late on Sundays. This messes up my schedule on Monday, and I'm too sleepy. But I did good last night and woke up feeling good in the morning.
Saturday, February 3
I'm finally up to Saturday. I went to my Phoenix Chapter National Federation of the Blind meeting. I am the Secretary, so I had to be there. Vicki does a great job at conducting the meetings. She's a very good President and Fred is a good Vice. Fred conducted this meeting.
After the meeting, Mommy and I went to eat before Evangelism. We went to Bishop's. I, personally, didn't enjoy their food. It was very bland. I prefer Hometown Buffet or Golden Corral much better. Anyway, it was just a place and we tried it out.
After that, we decided to go home. I just wasn't feeling well. My leg was hurting and so was my head. I was just pooped.
So, I went home and took a nap. Nikwa, (my sister who I have to yet write about) said that she would do my hair. She came and permed it. Now, I'm prettier! *LOL*
At about 7:00, we decided to go to the movies. We saw "Stomp the Yard." I thoroughly enjoyed this movie and felt that all the actors did a great job. I liked the storyline. I had big fun. We ate lots of popcorn too--including Rusty.
After the movie, I came home and went to bed. I knew that Sunday morning would come quickly. Plus, I was still tired.
After the meeting, Mommy and I went to eat before Evangelism. We went to Bishop's. I, personally, didn't enjoy their food. It was very bland. I prefer Hometown Buffet or Golden Corral much better. Anyway, it was just a place and we tried it out.
After that, we decided to go home. I just wasn't feeling well. My leg was hurting and so was my head. I was just pooped.
So, I went home and took a nap. Nikwa, (my sister who I have to yet write about) said that she would do my hair. She came and permed it. Now, I'm prettier! *LOL*
At about 7:00, we decided to go to the movies. We saw "Stomp the Yard." I thoroughly enjoyed this movie and felt that all the actors did a great job. I liked the storyline. I had big fun. We ate lots of popcorn too--including Rusty.
After the movie, I came home and went to bed. I knew that Sunday morning would come quickly. Plus, I was still tired.
Thursday, February 1
Well, the big day is here. The day that I'll find out the news.
I went to Advanced Foot and Ankle. Dr. Laurino was very nice. He'll
definitely be my foot doctor from now on. He x rayed my ankle and...
Didn't find anything. However, as he pressed it, the tendons were in
pain that deal with sprains. So there you have it--Ive got an
extremely bad sprain.
He put me in an uniboot and camwalker. I've got to wear it until the 13th.
Well, I'm happy and unhappy. I'm glad they didn't find anything. No
surgery? Yeah!!! No cast? Yeah!!! I'm just sad that I've got to wear
this thing. It's hot and heavy. However, I can be mobile with it.
That's the good news. I can still walk Rusty and do what I do. That's
today's news!
Tuesday, Jan 30
Well, it's been a crazy week for me. Mentally, I've been cool, but
physically? Nah. Lots of it had to do with my ankle. It's been hurting
nonstop since I fell two weeks ago. Suppose I gotta get it checked
out? Well, I made my appointment for Thursday. I'll let yall know what
happens. To be truthful, I'm kinda scared. Like I said, I've done the
cast thing and am not interested in a replay.
physically? Nah. Lots of it had to do with my ankle. It's been hurting
nonstop since I fell two weeks ago. Suppose I gotta get it checked
out? Well, I made my appointment for Thursday. I'll let yall know what
happens. To be truthful, I'm kinda scared. Like I said, I've done the
cast thing and am not interested in a replay.
Anyway, today at work was cool. I met with a few representatives from
Humanware who came to demo Mobile Speak Pocket. It made me feel really
good that I knew a lot of what they were showing us already. What made
me feel even better was the fact that I have Mobile Speak Smartphone
and could show them how it wasn't working with the MPower. Codefactory
said that it was an issue that Humanware needed to straighten out. And
ya know I let them know. They showed us some of their braille
displays. They are really cool.
I guess yall sighted folks don't have an idea of what I'm talking
about. My BrailleNote MPower is, as easily explained as I can think
of, like a PDA for the blind. I can read email, compose documents,
search the net, and all kinds of other goodies. Mobile Speak
Smartphone is a program that goes onto a SMARTPHONE (I have the
Motorola Q) and allows me to read text messages, use the media player,
and do everything with the phone that a sighted person can. If you'd
like to know more about these companies, go to
Codefactory
www.codefactory.es
Humanware
www.humanware.com
After that, we had a training at work that I attended. Work was ok.
A friend of mine had a surprise birthday party that evening. I wasn't
able to attend, but I was very happy for her. I feel that everyone
should have something special done for them on their birthday. I don't
think you're never too old to have a day that you deem as "special."
For many of us, it's our birthday. It doesn't have to be huge, just
meaningful. I was very happy for her. I thought it was quite
thoughtful of the church to do for her. Go Spirit Life Church!
www.spiritlife.tv
I got a chance to do some grocery shopping. Ya gotta take them rides
when they're available. I went to Sprouts and cleaned up on the Le
Nature water. I'm pretty upset that they've gone out of business and
fully intend to drink this as long as I can. I did some shopping at
Fry's. I got home late and ate a Pot Pie. That was the extent of my
day.
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Hey yall, what's been happening?
OK. I know I wasn't supposed to let almost two weeks go by without
writing. Sorry... (LOL) It's just... that life happens.
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Hey yall, what's been happening?
OK. I know I wasn't supposed to let almost two weeks go by without
writing. Sorry... (LOL) It's just... that life happens.
I'm gonna try to update you and what's been going on. I'll try and
separate different entries with the subject line of the date. Here it
goes.
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Tuesday, January 23, 2007
Staying in Contact
Hey yall,
It's been a while since I've written. A lot has happened since I
talked to you, including me in the ER. Did I say ER? Yes ma'am and yes
sir, that's what I said.
It's been a while since I've written. A lot has happened since I
talked to you, including me in the ER. Did I say ER? Yes ma'am and yes
sir, that's what I said.
Now the folks that really know me are aware that I don't like doctors,
and moreover, I hate hospitals. The only reason I went frequently to
them was because I was the visitor *laughing*.
Anyway, I woke up early Thursday morning with a pain from hell. If I
didn't need a doctor's excuse for work, I probably wouldn't have gone,
but when Chris asked, I said yes. All the while, from the bed, to the
toilet, to the car, I kept declaring out loud "By Jesus' stripes, I am
healed." I believed that 100%. My body must line up with that fact.
Consequently, I do not sustain long sicknesses.
I tell people that sickness and I have an agreement--that it does not
come here and set up residence. It is uninvited.
Anyway, these hospitals here are definitely different from the ones in
Michigan. Once they decided that it might be my appendix or
gallbladder, they had the IV needle out and ready for insertion. I
hate needles. I hate being out of control and being controlled by
drugs. That just ain't God. Ya feel me?
I cried like a baby. All I kept saying was, "I wish I would have never
come. I don't want no IV. I'm so scared." As I was crying, I just kept
thinking about Chris and started to admire him all over again.
He goes three times a week to dialysis--where they put huge needles in
him. He takes it without complaint. If it were me, I would probably
just ask God to take me out of here.
The nurse was very nice to me, and I held Chris' hand. Man, I not only
felt like a wuss; I was a wuss and din't care one bit.
The more they talked about keeping me, the more I refuted that out
loud, telling them, "Oh no. I'm not staying here. I'm going home. You
won't be finding nothing."
I don't really know why I'm telling you this word for word. Maybe it's
for someone who's reading this or will read this. I want you to be
encouraged to stand on the Word of God. If He said your healing is
available--and He did--then, you agree with God and speak it forth.
Well, I'm sure you guessed it. They couldn't find any problems, and I
was home by 9:00 a.m. Because of the Demarol (or however it's
spelled), I slept all day without pain.
Friday, I came to work.
Saturday, for the first time, I went to evangelism. I stayed back to
pray because I fell on Thursday when I finally got up to walk Rusty. I
hurt the same ankle that Satan has been trying to take out since
2004--I fell in the snow and had to wear a cast and the whole nine
yards.
After Evangelism, I went shopping. I really don't like to cool, but I
have determined to cook for my husband at least on the weekends. I'm
getting my confidence back, cuz back in the early ninety's, I used to
throw down. I cooked all kinds of stuff--fried fish, chicken, pork
chops; round steaks with potatoes and gravy;... the list was endless.
Because of a lot of hurt (some of it was because of my rebellion), I
shut down (way down). But, I'm back up again--slowly but surely! Two
weeks ago, I cooked spaghetti. This weekend, I made meat loaf. Yall
got ideas for next weekend? Send 'em my way.
Well, that's about all for now. I know I've got to finish my family
portrait. I'm gonna try and do that today.
Stay tuned, and thanks for reading and commenting.
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Sunday, January 14, 2007
Hurray! Another Success
I had to interrupt this normal broadcast to tell you about my great success!
All those who know me and want to get to know me must know this one thing--I love computers! I find it quite relaxing to work on my own--that is, when I want to. Anyway, I have been trying very hard to set up my BrailleNote as a display for my computer. My sister has taken me to the store on at least four occasion as I adventurously bought cords for this feat--only to discover that they were all the wrong cords.
Well, yesterday, I even had assistance from another state trying to help me. We got closer, but no success. Then I had someone else call me from this state. Closer, but no success. Then, my mommy took me to get a refund for the last cord I bought and look for the right one. We found it at Comp USA; plugged it in; and voila! It is now working!
I am so very excited. I figure, why purchase something neew when I can use what I have.
Thanks, God. Hurray!
All those who know me and want to get to know me must know this one thing--I love computers! I find it quite relaxing to work on my own--that is, when I want to. Anyway, I have been trying very hard to set up my BrailleNote as a display for my computer. My sister has taken me to the store on at least four occasion as I adventurously bought cords for this feat--only to discover that they were all the wrong cords.
Well, yesterday, I even had assistance from another state trying to help me. We got closer, but no success. Then I had someone else call me from this state. Closer, but no success. Then, my mommy took me to get a refund for the last cord I bought and look for the right one. We found it at Comp USA; plugged it in; and voila! It is now working!
I am so very excited. I figure, why purchase something neew when I can use what I have.
Thanks, God. Hurray!
Monday, January 8, 2007
Introduction--Part III: My Husband
One day soon, I'm gonna have pictures of my entire family available
for all to see. But I guess, until then, you'll have to see jsut as I
do. *Smile*
for all to see. But I guess, until then, you'll have to see jsut as I
do. *Smile*
In 1994, I had a relationship that ended quite disasterously. I mean,
it was pretty bad. The Lord was with me though. I went through
tremendous physical and emotional and spiritual healing afterwards.
This process took about six years.
During those six years, I was pretty hateful towards all men,
including, and especially, my father. I never considered getting
married or even having a boyfriend. I was truly hurt.
I started working in 2000 at the Great Lakes Center for Independent
Living. This guy intrigued me. So down I went--another road that ended
in a bad relationship. The Lord just used him to say to me, "I can't
be with you. I'm not good enough for you."
I remember feeling that my heart was being ripped in two. We had spent
lots of time together talking. I had witnessed to him, but he chose
not to give his life to God. I vividly remember feeling like rivers
would shoot from my eyes when the Lord stopped me from crying. That
was deep. I liked this guy sooooo much, but I know that he was right,
he wasn't the one for me. God Himself had kept him from me and me from
him.
In 2001, I met this guy and we became good friends. I definitely
wasn't trying to get with him. After all, all my attempts were futile.
I had designed to wait on the Lord. Anyway, this guy and I were
friends.
He told me that he was the grandson of a preacher in Belleville.
Indeed, I sensed a person who had been running away from his own
calling from God. I also sensed a guy who had a message to deliver to
many. I told him that. He was stunned. No one had ever spoken that
word to him.
I also told him that I felt that he had a mask on. What the world saw
was not the real him. Inwardly, I was intrigued and wanted to know the
real person inside. I guess it reminded me of how folks with outward
disabilities are treated many times.
People, that don't know about something tend to shy away from it. Many
of them aren't willing to stay around and get to know the real you. If
they do, they feel sorry for you and pity you. That goes for people in
and out of the church--sad to say.
Anyway, I decided to stay around and get to know this guy--simply as a
friend. My mom and I were his first visitors at the hospital when his
toe was amputated. I witnissed to him and he came to our church. We
prayed with him and read the Bible with him. Somehow, he had become a
part of our family--and that was fine with me. I wasn't looking to him
as a boyfriend--I would always care for him as my big brother.
Time passed. He began to grow in God. As with all of us, the growth
was sometimes very slow, but steady. He would accompany me to meetings
and such, many times being my eyes and a great help to me. He would
show me flowers as we walked down the streets. No one had ever done
this. We laughed and talked a lot. He was a good friend.
I too, had deliverance to go through. Because of Chris' persistance,
the Lord used him to help me get lots of deliverance as well. My
attitude used to be a mess. Chris might tell you that it is still a
mess, but I have come a long way. I was reeeeeeeealy a trip. One
minute I was cool. The next minute, I was mad as hell with him. Chris
always kept his cool though with me and my jacked-up attitude and was
there when I came back from my tripped-out zone.
Chris had lots of physical problems when we first met him. He
practically lived in the hospital, didn't eat right and the whole
works. We, our family, saw him come off the diabetic needle; go less
to the hospital; and actually have stable health. These are miracles
that only the God of heaven and earth could accomplish. And believe
me, we, including Chris, give God all the glory.
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Thursday, January 4, 2007
Introduction--Part II: My Parents
Now that I've finally got this thing working, I thought I'd try
posting to my journal and tell you some about
my parents.
posting to my journal and tell you some about
my parents.
My father still lives in Detroit. I have two brothers and a sister by
him. I love my dad a lot. God has done a lot in our relationship.
While growing up, we weren't around each other much. He had his life
going on, I guess, and that really hurt and scarred me. As life went
on, the Lord Jesus Christ helped me to forgive and love my father.
When my mom left for Arizona in 200e, the Lord brought my dad closer
to me. We did things together and he was there for me. We would talk
and laugh. It was quite neat to have him around, even if it was later
on in life. We really became close and I loved that.
When I moved to Arizona, it broke his heart. I thought I was the only
enjoying our relationship. It wasn't until I was planning on moving
that I found out he enjoyed it as well. My heart was broken about
leaving him, but I had to obey the will of the Lord for my life.
My desires for my Papa are (1) that he ba saved and know the Lord
Jesus Christ as his Lord, (2) that I will get to visit him this year.
My mommy is a wonderful, wise woman. I thank my God above for allowing
her to be in my life. She has been in my corner since I landed on this
earth. I haven't been the easiest child to get along with. (1) Being
born blind surely was a surprise; (2) being strong-willed was (and
still is) interesting. But my mom has given me loads of wisdom and I
appreciate her for this.
Besides leading me to Jesus Christ, who is my Lord and Savior,
I thank my mommy for believing in me, especially when I didn't believe
in myself. She is my biggest cheerleader and greatest confidante. She
is not afraid of me or of telling me the thruth. I am so proud to have
her as a mom!!!
Well, in the next post--Intro Part III--I'll let you in on the rest of
my family. I gotta keep yall guessin'
Peace
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