Time with God

Ok. I've been hit with some deep stuff lately. I mean, some deep stuff. My first reaction was to quit, leave it be, and nurse my emotional hurts. I have been spiritually tired. Not wanting to fight at all.

I began yesterday to pray that the Lord would help me to get back into His presence each morning. Get back into Bible studies. Get back into the swing of being a warrior! As Pastor Ramon just preached, I was a reservist soldier.

Anyway, the Lord woke me up this morning just a bit before 4:00 AM. And these are the notes of our conversation:

Matt 23:25-28
I can't just be concerned that the outside (what people can see) is clean and holy. I must make sure that the inside (my heart and spirit) is pure and clean.

I must war against the deceptive spirits; the Pharisaic spirit; the unclean spirits. It's a sin to make people think that I'm alright, but really, I'm a mess inside.

James 4:7 (NLT): "So humble yourselves before God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you."

Resist—To strive, to fend off or offset the actions, effects, or force of; to remain firm against the actions, effects, or force of; to keep from giving into or enjoying; to oppose.
"Resist" is an action word!

I can't afford to be inactive; to sit down. I have to fight against the devil when he comes against me, my home, my husband, my family.

James 4:8 (NLT): "Come close to God, and God will come close to you. Wash your hands, you sinners; purify your hearts, for your loyalty is divided between God and the world."

I have to make the first effort to get closer to God. As soon as I make that effot to draw night, God will come closer to me. I've got to be in that prayer; I've got to be in that place where the presence of God is. In my home, I've got to press through to get into the presence of God

Psalm 51:6-8 (KJV: "6Behold, thou desirest truth in the inward parts: and in the hidden part thou shalt make me to know wisdom.
7Purge me with hyssop, and I shall be clean: wash me, and I shall be whiter than snow.
8Make me to hear joy and gladness; that the bones which thou hast broken may rejoice."

I pray for a spirit of truth to be in my marriage—truth on the inside.

I must take inventory and get it right. I don't know how much longer I'll have.